Monday, December 11, 2006 ; 8:07 PM♥
Its been an affair of ICA's and cousin's wedding ROM. Plenty has happened ... I am lost for words... Why is that things don't turn out the way you want it to.. I am a perfectionist ... I need perfectionism in my life .... it keeps me satisfied...My friends have been giving me a whole lot of support to face reality and the fact that he is no longer in my life...
Why cant I accpet the fact that he is no longer in my life? He was the antecedant to my happiness and the very feeling of being wanted and loved... he came to me.... and now he has left me.. for another... A trans that's it... gosh me over a trans!...That's besides the point but why did he have to do this to me.. I have been cut so deep ... I want him back.... I really do:( Only god can intervene.. I heared he has changed his hp no.. and yea .. he didnt pass it to me... so much so for lending him my spare phone... I don't know what he thinks of me... I don't know if he ever did love me.. or was I just a come and go kinda thing for him... I have heared alot about him ever since we broke up.. and I am lost for words...
School has been really tiring.. I am going to go on a major diet.. I want to lose weight .. like 10 pounds....I have too... cause I want to be perfect... I have a body full of fat...I hate it...
I am enjoying the little things that I have been doing.... :) My friends have been tolerating my madcap behaviour.. haha.. The best part was when I was diagnosing everyone.. it was after abnormal psychology lecture... haha... and I do certify that Hafiz... has ANTISOCIAL PARANOID PERSONALITY DISORDER...the DSM criterion fitted him perfectly... gosh i was shocked....realli taken aback... I still like him a little... a wee bit....
I love my clubbwashhh pals.... they are just the best ever... indraani is crazy over my cousin... I have a whole list of people behind me... asha knows the whole list of them... haha
And...... I am enthusiatically waiting for my cousin's ROM... I just can't wait for the bigg dayy.....Somehow or another I just love to attend weddings... it a sacred union of two souls.. its just immaculately beautiful...I am donning myself in a blue indian outfit... I just can't wait!!
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