Wednesday, June 04, 2008 ; 1:45 AM♥
Dreamers, have you heard the phrase: “What you don’t know won’t hurt you“? I’m sure you have. Everyone says it. Well in case you haven’t figured it out, that’s crap! The fact that everyone accepts something as true, doesn’t make it true.
I’m feeling really tired. Not sleepy tired (although I could sleep). But I’m talking about the kind of tired you feel after you run a marathon and you cross the finish line and all you want to do is collapse. Keep in mind I never actually ran in a marathon, but I have run a 2 mile race and I nearly died.
I need answers. Ok maybe I want answers. Things just don’t seem real to me until I understand why they are happening or what the purpose is. Purpose is huge for me. Small details don’t bother me like they bother other people as long as I know the purpose. I can get on board with almost anything if I understand its role in the grand scheme of things. Even if its purpose isn’t important, it at least has to have one.
Then again, who am I to demand to know anything?
For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, “it might have been”,'it could have','i don't know'
Take from that what you will.
Its hard trying to change and nobody is perfect..if we were all perfect we wouldnt be in existence...SOmetimes the pressure to change can be overwhelming and be serve as a disadvantage.its scary.i just want you in my arms..the old you.The boy who used to text me just to say you miss me..the boy who lokked forward in spending every minute with me,the boy who loved my craziness.Just the boy who I once knew I can go back home to everyday of my life.
Boy,this is for you:
Babyboy your everything I wanted and needed.
I never thought in years to come that I will meet someone so spontaneous.
I was selfish and only rhpugh of my security but I never did though about your feelings,I apoligise and I admit I feel horrible inside of me,I just want thoigs to be back to basics.. us crazy n happy..
Sunday, June 01, 2008 ; 12:13 AM♥
It hurts it hurts so bad.
wha did i do to you,seasons are changing and waves are crashing.
Days grow longer and noghts grow shorter.
Im suicidal.
All talks and no action.
Please don't move out away.
I am here for you.
Please don't walk away.
Im here,infront of you,pleading.
Dont leave me,I miss you.I miss you.
I just want to be left alone for now,words you said have made my heart sour and heavy,i deserve it,i know i have initiated break ups but this time you wanted a timeout,well I still love you the same.
