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Monday, July 30, 2007 ; 10:05 PM

Ok last nite was nice=)
Went for dinner with my siblings.
Ate at a cafe near my house.
It was sooo damn nice la!
As usaul I was camwhoring,shortly after Dad joined us.
He stepped out for a little while,god knows why,probably to discuss something with a client who called.

My siblings wee enjoying the meal...We ordered sandwiches,doughnuts!!,Soups,Yummmmy!
I was picking on food.god knows why,and then the guilty feeling came again.*Die la*
After dinner we headed home.We walked!! hehe well well.. my family members are so jaga badan type.Dad was particularly concern with his pot belly.Sis was concern abt her height,brother.. nothin...yet.. mom.. hmmpph.. HER HAIR!! ME?? EVERYTHINGGG!

AN is killing me slowly.It is.Thoughts of refuting food,not eating is dominating my sanity.I hate it.I hate the way things turned out.BECAUSE OF YOU I DUNNO HOW TO EVER LET ANYONE IN! I AM STRANDED . I REALLY AM. Iis time YOU start YOuR game again HUH? Fuck! Start and stop bugging me.Your fucking hell smart in the game of LUST.I know it.I HATEEEEEEEE YOU ! I REALLY DO!DAMMNIT!

Stuck up in a world of my own,runaway love.Runaway now.I hate everything,it hell inside me.My scars will never heal.I just wish I could shoot you down and ud never be able to get on your feet again.But I only wish! There is the other side of me which doesnt wanna hurt you.That's the soft side of me.I am still emotionally unstable.I really am.I hate hate hate you.

I hate LOVE,MEN,YOU,EVERYTHING!





; 2:18 AM

What if I?
Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?
Or would they still apply?
If I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Can't be get'n mad!
What You Mad?
Can't Handle that!
Can't be get'n mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!

Wish we could switch up the roles
And I could be that...
Tell you I love you
But when you call I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me?...
Like where you be at?

Its like Im hating every bit of you.You killed me.Remember what goes around comes aornd.Whats with your ex gf or wait> I dun noe her gender! Bitchin about me among her family and friends? Look here she cant be me so fuckin hell ask her to buzz off,you were like the perfect initially and we were close to getting back and now.. I am certainly happy its over.YOu know sometimes its not your fault,its mine for giving myself an opportunity to fall in love again.I am numb.Two scrwed up relationships,being treated like plastic.Holy shitt.Its too much to take.I state my stand. There is hardly anyone you can trust nowadays.I have been through it.I mean what sort of a friend is a person if they only come to you when they need help?And the rest of the time just ignore you? Well the name of the game?.. Ignorance is bliss.I hate it when I am treated that way.I really hate it.I am withdrawing away .I really am.My diet is taking a toll.It feel like I am putting poison into my mouth.I can't afford a relapse cause my body is a state whereby what ever I do can make it or break it.I wish I wasn;t the way I am now.Mum would kill me.I dun noe what's happening.I really dun.The weekend was fun.It really was. My siblings make my day.I was telling dad about how much I wanted that very gorgeous white and golden gown.Papa wanted to get it for me.. but he was hesitant cause it was very expensive,mum on the other hand was on his side too! :( disappointment! Cause I looked like a million dollar in it.It was really nice:) Hiazz! I am going for pilates and yoga now:) Yeayness!Next would be belly dancing and bhangraerobics!!I feel so much better now that I'm working out and stuff.Ohh yea!! I bought a bikini!!:) whoohoo.. I wanna workout too fit into it! Its a very gorgeous blue bikini.I love it! haha id be putting up a pic of myself in it soon:P

Rebekah was telling me how much she misses hangin out with me and yea my bummerboy too.Well everyone is busy with sch.And my exam dates are out!

16Aug,17Aug,21Aug,23Aug

Im so screwed cause I havent started any shit ass thing.Man oh man where is that studying side of me gone too? Well oh well its time I revamp every shit out.From school to home to my friends to my EVERYTHINGG

I have to start studying.
This is my typical day,wake up,pilates,shower,bfast,school,home,yoga,dinner,slack,sleep

Slack has to change to STUDYING!!
Two weeks and then itll be holiz.Im teaching during the holiz.Yeay! At lest Id have something to do.I am so happy I got this bridal makeup modelling to do:) yeay! I am signing on again:) After I become more toned.Well I was once like stick thin and yea...Argghh aint wanna think about it

Well thats it for now.

I miss my grandmummmmyyy,mummyyy,my darlinggg seanieeee:)





Friday, July 27, 2007 ; 2:20 AM

Todaee!!
Whoohoo
Was great!
I was clad formally.
As usual I got the stares:(
Haha like as if I am an alien or somethin!
My friends were commenting on how professional I looked!!
Well my presentation went well.Ms Cynthia gave us an A!
God I swear the presentation was a last minute thing.We were ecstatic the moment we knew we got an A.Well it is a collaborative effort indeed and finally our hard efforts paid off!Hats off guys! Ultimate Happiness!
Well I went on a shopping spree yesterday,it was hell.Too many things to carry! Met my mummy dearest and then ivy. It was really nice talking to them about how I feel.Its really nice to know they care.Not forgetting my kaijing dearest,she is one TRUE friend.I really miss her lots.I miss Beckie,Weing,Sulin,Denise.They were there for me in times of crisis.Man I totally miss them all.Alvin (THE CELEBRITY)NOT THAT FUCK! came to our school.He is uber gorgeous! I mean hot.Really nice.Ahhh..Hehe. Well spoke to my joyce dearest for a little while.Her baby(MY GODBABY)! is arriving soon.I am so excited.I am going to follow her for the next ultrasound scan.I really am looking forward to see Pearline!! Hehe.Hmmph.kinda happy today.I really am.Well... I am off to meet my ghaya dearie and rubzy darlin!!


Peace out!!


Your Irreplaceable though your faraway.

=)





Wednesday, July 25, 2007 ; 8:31 PM

I am feeling so pent up lately.Well yeah,fustrated for many reasons,I dun wana think about it,neither I wanna talk about it.I just cant stand friends who make use of you when they need you the most and then just pretend your transparent.Now I am a true friewnd and I have been there for my loved ones and sometimes its just sad when you get treated this way.NO hard feelings to anyone out there.I hate this feeling of neglection.It sucks totally.It really does. I have realised that there are very few people whom you can trust and tell everything and anything at all to.SOmetimes even the ones close to you can backstab you.How amazing huh? Brutal Betrayal is the name of the game. Heck.SOmetimes I just wanna run away from all these emotions,people whom tyou trust so much can betray you,people who you love so much neglect you.People whom your willing to die for blame you and make use of you.Well you name it.I have faced it.SOmetimes it feels like I am alone ranger,left to sketch my path and go down this lonely path where I walk ALONE.ITS ME . I just can't put it thorough that I am pissed when you make arrangements and then dun fuckin hell give me a msg or call to reconfirm it.YOu know what I am immune to it already,I really am.I hate this feeling of doing everyhting for that someone and then being ignored.Heck it.Well it is affecting me,but I know I can life with it.

MEt cousin Vik on tuesday,Well he is the only one that makes me go crazy with laughter.IT was so funny being with him,we went to get a new hp and then shopped around for dresses.After that I left to head home to complete my projects.Ghaya dearie called me and we were hogging on the phone as usual.WEll she is like MY REPLICA.haha.After that I had to go and help dad with his presentations .I did all the way to 1 am.*yawns* tired out man!! I met my mummy dearest yesaterday! It waas so fun with her.And everyone in school were telling me how good I looked.:) Well I am normal la!!Mummy and I went from JE to boon lay to bugis to tampines!! HahahaFunn! I miss her loads!! Came back home to have dinner *guilty shitass feeling came back again.* Hell! Well I think I am going to die of an eating disorder soon enuff.It seems like I am helpless and unable to to anyhting about that feeling.I know its wrong but yea.That fucking hell thoughts keep coming back.I hate it !

Got my pay today.Well ITS NEVER ENUFF!

These are the things I need to get:

HERBALIFE SHAKE
EYELINER
MAKEUP POWDER
THAT CELLULITE CREAM
TOPSHOP SHADES
ZARA TOP
ACCESSORIES
CLOTHES!!!!!

Pay my screwed up hp bill.

I hate you.I still miss you.





Tuesday, July 24, 2007 ; 2:35 AM

If I told you once, I told you twice,
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,
With nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.

If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain away.

I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.

Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
And call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.


P.s Im still NOT over you

Why did you have to do that? I just cant accept it. I hate you so much.Don't blame me if you get beaten up by my frens.They hate you and baby watch your back.
I think I am scumbing into AN.I really am.The thoughts are coming back.I am living a life full of confusions.My diet regime is haunting me.I am afraid of getting fat.I am scumbbing into the mess I got into years back. GOODBYE FOOD! HELLO ANEROXIA. I hate myself for doing this to my body though.I loved it when I was skinny.Isnt it better to stop the nervous cancer of getting fat by not eating.Everytime something goes into my mouth I am afraid,afraid of my weight.I am a hefty 58,I used to be a 43. Where did all that weight comes from?I hate my doctor for putting the weight back.I really hate it.I just wanna lose weight.I am so so so so so afraid. I really am.I am damn scared I'd become to big to fit into my clothes.I can't feel my bones enough.People may think I am crazy.But this is the truth.I am wasting away and dying slowing.This feeling inside me is killing.I can never be perfect enough,skinny enough to satisfy myself.I can never be smart enough to get the grades I always want.DAmn! And whats with YOUR friends tryina hook up with me? See the kinda life I am living? Guys thinking I am easy to get just because I went on with a player? Fuck! I hate everything.I have decided TO LIVE MY LIFE MY WAY . THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE. THATS IT! I can't hold on any longer.I am honest. I still miss you.





Monday, July 23, 2007 ; 1:39 AM








; 1:21 AM

I don't know whats with you viewing my profile.Shows that you havent gotten over me? Wow.Rave about it all you want.And whats with your friends viewing it too? Your probably bitching around my back? Thankfully I moved away cause I know your still with HER.Come on her pics in your account reveal it all so don't u go around claiming I am the one at fault.Well I dunno how I fell for that cadaverous looking face of yours.I am so disgusted! I really am.Where do you stand and where do I stand? I may criticise you but let me tell you one thing.. you will always remain in me cause of every shit that happened .YOur too much of a trauma to forget,you haunt me even in my dreams,your a nightmare! I just can't possibly drop thoughts of you.I really cant.Not about the happy moments with you but my toughest moments with you.What did I do to deserve this ? Thoughts are probably going through your mind when you saw pics of my and my best guy friend. Go on and think what you want.GO ahead.Cause I caught you red handedly viewing his profile too.My my.. what a tyrant you are.Even after all this your so persistent? I can't believe it.YOu just want me for satisfying your lust rite? GO FIND A PROSTITUTE CAUSE YOUR ONE YOURSELF! YOu ex gf may have given you everything,and thats why you'd prbably rate her higher than me. Fuck off please! Please please. YOu didnt even give me chance to explain myself did you? You assumed, you cheated you left.That doesnt hurt me much,but the fact that you assumed and screamed at me cuts me deep.I hate you . I really do.Its never gonna be the same when I am gonna see you again.I don't ever wanna see that anorexic looking face of yours.I really don't. Count my unlucky stars if I ever bump into you.I detest this shithole that you put me in.Like I always said the hardest part of saying goodbye is when you never wanted to leave. You said everyhting that swept me off my feet.ONE YEAR YOU TRIED.. and now its gone.. glad its over.I really am.Cause you did stuffs behind my back and tried to covered it up. I hate you.

Sleepless nights cause of you.Your haunting me.My worst nightmare.





Friday, July 20, 2007 ; 2:17 AM

Today was lab assessment.I was super nervous.Jag,Hidir,Ferdy were disturbing me as usual and asking about my ex! Haha.I was telling them and they were rather disgusted with his attitude.Well when it was my turned I went in and I got CVP monitoring.Something which I HATED! God! Well my assessor was Bella.I was not in the condition of sitting for an exan cause of every shit that has been happening.And Bella's expectations are high,well maybe not for the rest but me.I don't know.Even she was shocked by my incompetency to her standard.And she asked me;my dear gal whatr happened to you today?your never like this.Well I was nervous+irritated+unwell.I managed to pass the assessment with a fair score of 25/30.
Now that is never my usual score.I always get around 28.I was cheesed out.I really was.I stormed out of the room,thinking to myself,what the hell am I doing?Why am I compromising my talent and ability because of everthing that has happened? Infact I should be using it as a catalyst to excel.I really should.My parents have very high expectations of me.My whole family does.Cause I was a high achiever.Even at death's bed I did very well in my exams.But now? Gosh what the hell is happening ,Is this the way its going to continue? If it is I know I am never going to get ANYWHERE or attain my goals.I have compromised my intellectual ability cause of you? Hello! you were never that high.Its time to erase those memories and put it all behind.Its time I build my foundation,I can't go on like that.But thanks to the lucky bastards who have had me as their girlfriend.The last one should be very fortunate infact! And thanks to MY SMELLYBELLY AND DADDYDEAREST WHO MADE ME FEEL EXTRAORDINARY! ILOVEUBOTH! AND TO MY DARLINGS! THANKS A TON!

AND TO THE STUPRD BAPOK! WHATS WITH YOU MSGING ME SAYING TO GET ALIVE? HAHA PLS GIMME A BREAK YOU CREATURE WITH UNDEFINED GENDER.CMON YOUR AN IN BETWEEN SO DON'T U DAR MESS AROUND WITH ME.I AM WAY SMARTER AND WAY OFF YOU.U AINT COMPARABLE TO ME CAUSE YOUVE GOT AN IDENTITY CRISIS TO ADDRESS YOURSELF .SO YOU GET ALIVE.HOW SENSELESS CAN SOMEONE GET? yOU MAY HAVE EVERYTHING IN LUXURY BUT THE ONE THING YOU DON'T HAVE IS THE TRUE VIRTUE OF A WOMAN.! SLUT,BITCH.WAIT! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO CALL YOU CAUSE YOUR GENDER IS UNDEFINED? YOU POOR THING!





Thursday, July 19, 2007 ; 2:04 AM

Everyone is happy with the decision that was made.EVERYONE.Thanks to all who stood by me.I am still accepting it.Not the fact that he has left but the fact that I was nothing to him.I am numb.I really am from all the undued attention he gave,the sweet nothings,I don't what or how I fell for all of it.Anf the fact that you can say:BABY YOU WERE THE TOUGHEST GIRL EVER. Well you came,you wrecked,you left.Is this is the way its going down,cause this is not the way to say goodbye.I have put you as my worst nightmare,I dunno whatever that is going through your shit hell head now.You can pretend but baby the world is a small place.Everyone is interconnected in someway or another.And ad for me..you don't need to say.YOU CAN ASK YOUR FUCKED UP BEST FREN AND HE WILL TELL YOU IN YOUR MAMA LINGO "Deh she ponne NAP da!You should see her dance da deh.. sudu eridum"Yupp well your frens are certainly deprived like you.Thanks for doubting my love,knowing the soft side of me and always trying to dig that very vulnerable side of me,boy you know me really well.And if youe ever going to bitch about me.. thats it MR your gonna get a big hell load of shit from me.. or rather wait.. from those who are around me.This was something i never contemplated.YOU WERE THE ONE WHO IMPEDED MY PROGRESS.YOU WERE THE ONE SCRUTINIZING MY PROFILE>FUCKIN HELL.. Ask your damn self.whos fault it was. now self talking is never going to work for.cause your a fucked up person with a character that stinks totally and stop telling people that you loved me.You said FORGET IT.PRETEND THINGS NEVER HAPPENED? Well I am the one who is going to benefit.Cause it your loss that you lost me.In have nothing to lose.I have everthing,A beautiful family,loyal friends,money,and a luxurious and happy life..the happiness accelerated when you came into my life but later then I knew it was decelarating.How did I ever let it affect me.I am honest about how I feel.I feel like a wretch,a lost soul.So much had happened that I am hating everyhting and I am afraid.I am really afraid to fall in love,that's the impact you have left on me.Why am I affected so much? I don't know.I really don't know.You know my character,I am a perfectionist,a high achiever. I want htings to go by the path I sketched it to.I have always worked hard for whatever I wanted.But I am a failure to you? Well maybe in your life I am.Cause you were a failure yourself,The lies you weaved were intricate and I was innocent,rather stupid to bu them.YOu said you changed,pleaded for the second time but you blew it .You blew it all.And fancy turning it all around and making it seem as if I am a bad girl? Why MR? Is it because I found out your promiscuousity? And are that afraid that I might spread tales about you? Well there is no need for that cause you have been labelled ny the society :***** is A MALE PROSTITUTE.Wad a name.Ask youself is what your doin fair? Thank god to my friend who pulled me outta this mess you were trying to create.Thanks to her or else I know that I will fall again and never be able to get up.UR A LUSTY BASTARD WITH SEXUAL NEEDS THAT NEEDS TO BE ADDRESSED LIKE HUNGER PANG,ITS YOUR HOBBY. Your a total disgrace to the society.Why do you even exist? I hate you!






Tuesday, July 17, 2007 ; 8:30 PM

I never did want things to turn out this way.I never did.We are two worlds apart.We can never be together.Never.Not when my whole family knows what type of a guy you are.Still I went against everything,making attempts to love you again.I never promised you rainbows and a garden of roses..It is all about compromising,You wanted me.The way you tried so hard.You loved me.I hated you from the start.Blame myself for falling into your trap.Everyone warned me.. but I was really obstinate.I deserve it.And after that conversation you seemed so convincing but I had my doubts,I am numb.I am in pain.I don't want to hate you but I can't help it.

I want to forget you.I will someday,not too soon.
I am absolutely disgusted by your behaviour.I really am.It is not my fault if my friend had to ask you if you were trying to get back.If you were serious you would have been honest with her.Why the lies?You wanted us to be low profile? LOok here! I know too many people and nothing about me can be low profile.Well I am glad your fucking hell out of my life.Now your just a piece of trash to me.YOu were my bigget mistake,my worst nightmare.You made me fall so hard that it seemed so hard to get up.If not for my friends and their support I would have never been able to put through the shit you gave me.

You said I was the worst gf you ever had? WELL YOU WERE MY FUGLIEST BF IN ATTITUDE AND BRAINS. YOu really were. I AM WAY SMARTER THAN YOU.You were after my money,you were possesive,YOu nothing I wanted.NOthing.I thought you would have changed,but a leopard would never change its spots.It wouldnt take me a minute to ruin your reputation futhur and get rid of that girl who is being cheated by you.Your a bag of shit.You don't even deserve any respect from anyone.YOu really don't.I can get information about you in a second MR. But I am not inhumane to make your life worst.What can I say your just a priceless work of art.To those who wonder who I am talking about.Its none other than a fucked up dancer who was once my love.Yess go figure who is it.Fucked up player WHAT GOES AROUND WILL COME WAY BACK AROUND. AND ITLL HIT YOU REAAAAAAAL HARD! I wish you bever fuckin hell existed or came into my life.You don't know the meaning of love and you dont deserve to be loved by anyone.YOu don't Cause all you want is a girls body.Fuckin hell.Pity your friends who have to put up with you and the very fact that you might have an STD would pose a further threat.I totally pity all you ex gfs for putting up with you.I WAS THE SMARTEST TO FIND OUT,WAIT AND TO SCREW YOU TO AN EXTENT THAT YOU COULDNT REPLY.DUN MESS AROUND WITH ME MR AT. DUN EVER! DUN GO AROUND SAYING I WAS YOUR EX GF.CAUSE ITS HUMILIATING..FUCK OFF im glad we have seperated. and for your info I have deleted everything,your no,your pics,those lovey dovey messages ,the pics we took are probabli in the incinerator.Everthing.I hate you.I am totally sick of all this shit.
LUST BRINGS YOU NO WHERE! FUCK OFF AT! FUCK OFF





Monday, July 16, 2007 ; 2:37 AM

(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
yoz baby
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
hw r u ?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
im good baby
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
missed ya alot
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
when u gonna see me
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
i miss u too
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
muackz
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
same here
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
hw is sch?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
u sure?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
u dun have anyone else?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
why did you love me so much?
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
i didnt love anyone else but u baby
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
am im sure about that
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
y?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
but y me?
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
you found someone huh?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
nah
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
im still the same baby
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
Im really sorry about that
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
i really am
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
More like you dun wana give things another shot .
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
but yea
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
I still love u the same
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
we can date again
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
yup
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
..
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
NO PROFILE!
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
u tellin me tht?
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
okay its my fault,I said sorry ,im sorry baby
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
misses yur kisses
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
I miss my babyboy
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
and i miss everything about you baby.I just wanna love you
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
U are fuckin hot.My property.
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
:)
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
yup
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
can we start it over?
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN YOUR PROPERTY
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
wasnt that enuf baby?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
nah
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
My juniors will be from you.
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
got juniors somemore ah!!
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
WONT!
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
You want me,then screw things up,Is this what you want,Why are you like this?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
u screwed the relationship
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
i were to dumb ya
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
i could haf juz done it the minute after we met.
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
i did all the shit
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
i know
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
im sorry
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
:)
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
i really am
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
its ok
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
we shall date again
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
stop smilingyou shitface:P!
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
and can i be yur 1st to love you again?
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
:)
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
u sure?
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
You want me so much?
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
I love you baby
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
of course I want you
*Velvetkisses*Lil-vain*I wear halo.Now its back to where I started says:
stop winkin and smiling you asswipe!
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
baby
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
i gtg
(¯`·._.·[]·._.·´¯) says:
see ya around aiight

I have the least idea about what happening.But yea its a mystery,I hate this shit.





Sunday, July 15, 2007 ; 8:12 PM

I have lab exam today.Compulsory skills.Kinda nervous though.I read up and memorised as much as I ccould.My whole body hurts.I dunno why.Took painkillers to alleviate the pain.The pain is quite superficial for now,but I fell very exhausted.Saw my darling Joyce,she is going to be a mother! And I am the godmomma!! My my..I can't wait for the baby to arrive.Its so exciting.We are going to go shopping after our exams.The expected delivery date is in NOV.My my I am so excited! I can't wait.I love kids.I really do.They are very adorable and irresistable.Was having a convo with ghaya darling and rubzy.I managed to get them back together !! She was really happy,I could here it from the tone of her voice and her ever so bubbly laughter.Well I am really happy for them and whatever that happens I'd stand by the both of you!I miss my grandma and my darling cousin.I can't wait for my exams to be over this week then I can go over and visit them.Grandpa is going for his colonescopy today.I hope there wouldnt be any significant findings.Im praying hard.
Well thats all for now:) I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THE SONG SATHISH SENT ME.Its really nice to hear!

I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there.
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you
I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.
Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It's only in your mind
Only in your mind





; 7:07 PM

Pretending that you were faithful to me
Knowing that your heart's with someone else
Living with a hope was just my dream
I was sleeping in your shadow
Now you can see it clearly in the light
Knowing there's no complications
Now you can see a chance to live your life
Instead of feeling sorry for yourself
Oh baby, oh baby, we did the best we could do
I'm sorry that you're leaving
Baby, oh baby, you've found a light in the sky
And someone to believe in
Baby, there's someone out there who cares
And if you feel low with no place to go
Think of me.Cause I am there for you.I fuckin hell miss you.I hate you so much.





; 6:53 PM

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone, you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
It's been a long time since you called me
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough





; 1:48 AM

Yesterday was really awesome.I was not very well though.Went for my bowling game in the morning.The game went well.But we didnt make it to the finals.It was saddening but yea.My hands were aching from carrying the ball.OUCH!!I hurt my wrist too.I sprained it.It hurts alot though.Jegs,Naresh,Sharjun were in my team.I was the only girl.Now that's not surprising cause I am always the only rose among thr thorns.Haha.Well yea after the game I rushed off to meet mom to get a dress.I got a black short one.It was low cut and pretty sexayy!! (the way I like it!)Well yea I came back home and got all dolled up for my friends 21st.Met asha at 6pm and headed to ceylon sports club .We werent very sure how to get there. And yea MAN!! WE WERE LIKE BIMBOS!! Haha.. asha don't deny! We had a super camwhoring session.. now I am a camwhore.. so yea.. we took alott of pics.I had lotsa fun at the party though.Mugz and yoga looked so nice! ANd they were disturbing me as usual.Haha my awesome junior nurses! Hehe.Well I left upon dad's arrival.He came to pick me up and boy he knew the whole of the guests.Sometimes it sucks when your dad is well known.It really does.We took a cab back home an dad was chatting as usual with me.I came back and got changed.My sexy bummerboy messaged me.And we were crapping as usual.REUBEN you damn crazy ! And I miss you!! We are planning to have a chalet party soon.Well at least after my finals that is.I have exam next week.I am so stressed out.I gotta get back to mugging.Final year is so screwed up.Ima really tensed.





Thursday, July 12, 2007 ; 7:50 PM

Now the stress is building upon me.Its been an affair of tutorials,lectures,assignments,exhibitions,my tournament.Yes it taking a toll.Met asha and prem yesterday and I had this wierd craving for OLD CHANG KEE'S currypuff! Haha.yea prem was annoying me as usual.. I don't know what pleasure he drives from it but yea.. his annoyance is the funny kind.. where you can never get angry but to laugh it off.We were comparing our heights.. and yes I WASS THE SHORTEST:( Haha..We then left for home shortly after that.Asha and me were just sharing on how stressed up we are.We have the same symptoms! Restless,Having difficulty staying asleep and having a bad headache and stuffs..we then we deciding on what to wear for Pushpa's 21st tomorrow.Okay I have set my eyes on that BLACK dress!! Ohhlala..I can't wait for the party though cause I really need a time out.I am having a bowling tournament tommorrow,its with Jegs and his frens.Cousin Jegs is another annoying one.We are probably going to turn the tournament into war ground I bet.Cause we just can't get along and imagine we are int he same team! Thanks to uncle! Arhhh! I am looking forward to tommorrow I really am.

Monday is my lab skills exams,Its on resuscitation and airway management.Oh god!
Wednesday is the theory of the whole thing! TPN,RESUS,INTUBATION,EVERYTHING! I got to recap on my CPR!!Friday is the alternative skills exam..I am really stressed out.Its alot to study and I am kinda scared cause I have really started.Its really hard to delegate the time,especially when you have tons of projects to do.My friends also have been complaining to me about it.. and I am like a little aunt agony who tries to keep their stress at bay by talking to them and stuff! haha.. yup yup.. Okay thats all for now:)

*yawnz*

And to hiphopjuliet,my cousin... ur tags were so mean! he was nice but yea its a good thing we broke off ,I have no time for all the nonsence he does,I have had enough of everything!Being treated like plastic.. I can never stop if start about him!





Wednesday, July 11, 2007 ; 3:57 AM

Ok now its school that I am going to rave about.Its been really screwed up.Assignments and porjects and tutorial after tutorials.Whoa! A whole hellova lot of stress.I have been trying to maintain my composed state.I can't take it though.It'll be all over soon.When I graduate.Now I have to be clear of what I want.Ms Chia was speaking to me.She was really nice in that sense cause she really knows what I am going through inside out.I am not like any other girl,I am somone who needs to get whatever I want.And I'll do all it takes to get everything I want.Yes you may see it as stubborn.But I don't care.Cause thats the way I am.People tend to judge me.God knows why.Look at me and you come to a conclusion?Criticise me? Go on raving about it..its not going to affect me.I have learned it the hard way.Perpetually being betrayed,toyed with,scrutinized.Enough! I have been through what you can put it as mental torture,From my eating disorder,to relationships.Everything.But I have learned valuable lessons from it.I have morphed,life is short and you can't possibly brood over the mistakes you make.Everyone makes mistakes,learn from it.Everyone has setbacks,and it makes us stronger.I am who I am.I love myself.I may seem very unapproachable but thats not me.I am brutally opinionated and yes vulnerable.Thanks to my darling who have been there for me.And thanks my ex's who have indeed taught me a valuable lesson and have been given the honour of "PLAYBOY" by yours once upon a time beloved.I can never appreciate the awareness you have instilled in me.You cut me deep time and again but its all worth it now.I see my life the way I'd see it.YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO JUDGE ME!





Monday, July 09, 2007 ; 9:58 PM

Home is shit,Dad can be a tyrant and a pain in the neck.When mom is ok dad is screwed up when dad is ok mum is screwed up.Its just so hard.He thinks his dominance can discipline anyone.I hate it.Being controlled, being told what to do.Even my ex bf was a tyrant in that sense.I hate.. hate.. I fuckin hell hate to be control or to lead my life the way others want me to lead.Hello? I am human,the least you could do is respect me for who I am.Life is fucked up.CAll me cheap? Excuse me. Where did all that words went to when I topped the class with A's?When the teachers came and told you that:your daughter is very lovable and someone with great potential? Where Where.YOU NEVER ALLOWED ME TO DO ANYTHING I WANTED TO YOU NEVER EVER DID.For every damn thing you controoled me.All you said was "NO THIS ISNT THE RIGHT TIME" I never said I wanted to club,and I don't hang out late.You complain about my dressing,my attitude.Everything.YOU TEND TO BELIEVE OTHERS.YOU DUN EVEN TRUST YOUR OWN DAUGHTER? Enough of everything that I have put up with.Your shit,your tyrannical attitude.I don't care about what your sisters think of me dad.CAUSE THIS IS HOW I WILL BE. You gave me everything I wanted,you were a great dad nonetheless but all you wanted out of me is STRAIGHT A's Everything.You looked down upon my ITE bf.. werent you from an ITE yourself? Think about it dad.. I know you wanted the best for me.. but dad I am grown up.I AM WHO I AM.





; 3:35 AM

Its been preety long since I blogged.Well plenty of shit has been going through my mind.Yes I STILL can't LET YOU GO.I don't know why.I really don't.Your like a malignant virus.Now you can deny it all babyboy but it yourself that your cheating.It somehow feels weird but I am doing ok but sometimes I just feel itll be better with you around.About all the shit..I don't wanna mention.There was a real replica of you.I SWEAR ! And man I got a shock of my life cause I had this very feeling it was you.I went numb all over.I really did.Wish I could switch up worlds.You treated me literally like a toy.I still can't accpet it.But I reackon I'm just too vulnerable.You never did reply to my messages which I sent you long back.Sometimes I wish I was the boy.Ur messing with my head again.I can't take it boy.I really can't. I dont hate you.I am freakin disappointed.I really am.The words you uttered it really hurts.Now you can get anyone you want but boy ask yourself who your cheating.. its ultimately yourself,I am stuck within four walls,your lies,your betrayals flash through my mind like a movie that never end.I wanna run away but your thoughts are holding me back. DO you feel like a man when you affect a girl like me? What did I do? You said it all my fault Hello? Excuse me.. ask ask ask who is the one at fault.Here I am in my room crying like an ass while I type this do fuckin hell care? NO you don't. You fucking hell wanted another chance .. you proved you were worth it and now you did this.Its been awhile since we spoke yes.. I dun deny that I miss you,I really do.Cause you were part of me for a few months.One last chance seem like a game of lust to you.I am forced to think the world is hell.I really am.Cause I am totally affected.My mentor was kind enough to call me up and speak to me.And now its ultimately me.My decision.Now I have decided.I AM going to forget you.I am.Part of me is still in you.Boy I am high maintainence.You can never fit my bill.NEVER.EVEN IF YOU DID..I KNOW YOUR GAME. I am forgetting you.Its time I did.I wanna move on.I am.From this minute.I DUNO WHO YOU ARE.Lets pretend we never had anything.Well you know and I know what you did to me was really unfair.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.





Thursday, July 05, 2007 ; 8:53 PM

A convo that was really like a tamil movie kinda thing:)
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
y u keep changing ur hairstyle lah
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
ooh
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
me huh
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
is this--> new hair nice?
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
i duuno la
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
im a hair freakk
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
everytime also change
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
hehe
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
wad is ur impression on goth?
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
hmmm
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
okay
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
nice
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
but i dunno
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
but wot i get attracted 2 in a gurl is da eyes n da hair n da smile
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
hehe
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
thts nice
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
some guys go for body la,skin la,legs la
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
haizzzz
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
mine is a guys height
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
i lovee tall guys
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
i dunno
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
i really can fall in love wid da eyes
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
SOME GURLS HAVE VERY NICE EYES
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
LIKE MINE
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
yea
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
i know dat . . .
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
eh i chuuma adichu uduraan!
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
urs i dunno
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
but i alr saw da most beautiful pair of eyes alr . . .
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
hehe
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
paavi
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
who is that angel?
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
i dun really know
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
came in my dream 1 . . .
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
eh
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
eanna tamil paddama?
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
no
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
reallyy
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
okay okay
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
i know why!
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
cause you spoke to me before u sleep!
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
y?
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
thts why!!
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
pls lah
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
paanii
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
thn go on
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
hw was she like?
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
fair? pretty?
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
like me?
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:

fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
okay okay
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
kinda tall
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
big round eyes
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
nice smile
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
soft hair . . .
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
and thn?
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
wot else u wan me to tell
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
hmmm..
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
dunno
My girls are forever, BOYS are WHATEVER! says:
tell everythinn!
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
haha
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
i dunno wto to telll
fLy LiKe a BuTtErFLy . . . sTiNg LiKe a BEE ! ! ! says:
it was justa dream

Hope that dream girl appears in front of him:)





Tuesday, July 03, 2007 ; 11:52 PM

Your Beauty Element is Fire

Wild and sexy, you keep your beauty style smokin' hot.
You're not afraid of glamour or showing off your assets!
What's Your Beauty Element?





; 11:37 PM




Your Seduction Style: The Charmer



You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.

You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.

By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.

And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Is Your Seduction Style?





; 11:16 PM

Sagittarius - Your Love Profile
Your positive traits:
Your playful nature brings out the happy inner-child in datesYou're willing to take risks in love... and reap the rewardsYou've got a killer sense of humor that gets talking with any hottie you meet
Your negative traits:
Sometimes your sarcasm comes off as biting and abrasiveYou can be brutally honest, tactless, and truthful even when it hurtsYou're such a free spirit that you find it hard to commit to one person
Your ideal partner:
Someone high energy who will pick up and out with you wheneverIs creative and fun - thinking of new adventures for the two of youIs bold... and not afraid to tell you "I love you" early on
Your dating style:
Unpredictable. You never know how the night is going to end up.
Your seduction style:
Daring. You're always pushing to try something new in the bedroom.Full of imagination. You've always got a new fantasy you're dying to try.Spiritually driven. Sex for you can be an other-worldly act.
Tips for the future:
Realize that while freedom is great - sometimes a stable relationship is better.It's not all about you. Focus on your partner's needs every once and a while.Make up your mind about your partner, and stick to it. Your fickle will ruin things otherwise.
Best color to attract mate: Purple
Best day for a date: Thursday
What's" Your Love Profile?





; 12:34 AM

Eyes which don't know impurity look at me,
reflecting the forever endlessly continuing earth,
tracing the remains of my forgotten tears with a little finger.
I have changed my blogskin.It totally suits my mood.Depressed.Now it just don't know what your drifting at.Yourshoutouts,your bulletins.God! Whats with you creating the impression that I am head over heels for you? You know.I know that you'd always be my boo. Whether you hate me I don't care but hurts me to see you living a lie,if this is the way you want things to be..It shall remain this way.Memories of you kill me.I am literally dying away.You wanted it all.You made a blunder out of your life and I was there for you.I took an oath that I be there for you till the very end.I am sorry I cant keep up to it.Cause you have caused me so much miseries and heartaches.I can never forget everything you did to me.Never in this lifetime.You cheated and my heart bleeded.how could you be so unappreciative? I just don't understand.I called you like months back and you did fuckin hell bother to reply.It was to see how you were doing.Your treating me worst than dirt.I just don't know what I was to you. Why did you ever have to come into my life?There were so many better people but I chose you cause I knew were the one.But later did I know it was the wrong choice.You played your game well MR. You really did.HATS OFF to you.Your cheating yourself,you really are.Now I still love you the same and itll remain like that forever.Just remember that your in my prayers and my mind always.God bless you and I just want you to be the best of who you can be.
Truth hurts,
You hurt me so badly.
I fucking hell dont deserve this.





Monday, July 02, 2007 ; 4:21 AM

It's true, we're all a little insane.
But it's so clear,Now that I'm unchained.
Fear is only in our minds,Taking over all the time.
You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.Sweet sacrifice.
One day I'm gonna forget your name.
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.
I dream in darkness,
I sleep to die,
Raise the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.
So you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
Now its not right or wrong.Whats with you telling me you wanted me the moment you saw me? A funeral can turnn out to be a place for you to get hooked up with a girl? What is with you asking me out when you have someone? YOu claim your relationship is on rocky roads.I knew it the moment I saw you staring at me.I havent seen you around and yet you say you have seen me around many times? What the hell? Now Mr.. I am very versed in the faculty of handling a player cause I was with one major player.. whom you probably know. If you think I am easy to get you can kiss my gorgeous ass otherwise.Now I was telling asha about this particular person even she was like what the? I have had enough of guys fucking hell playing around,toying with a girls emotions. Now my best friend is going through it.. come on its not an excuse for you to not call or msg. 24hours a day and you don't have time? lol! Where did all the time come from when you were after her? Now that you got her you think she is plastic? No emotions? NOw I know my bestiee inside out.I can clearly say she has fallen for this guy. And if tries anyhting funny.. god bles him.. cause ima gonna fuck him big time. Guys well... some guys are fucking bastards.. now you'gangster '(like you claim) Watch your back cause what goes around comes around. And to that Mr anonymous as I would like to address you don't think you can try your luck with me.. cause your gonna get one fucking hard hit if you mess around .I have had enough of fucked up playboys And to think the one who stuck with me like superglue after the breakup totally ignores me.. Period. It sad that people like this exist.





; 3:06 AM

Here we lay face to face once again
Silence cuts like a knife as we pretend
Was it me, or was it you that broke away,for what we were is like a season love is change and everytime I think about it, it tears me up inside.
Like the rivers of emotion but I got no more tears to cry.
We can try to talk it over but we walked that road before, while our song is playing its last note, we both know for sure that its time to close that door.I cant even fine the words to say I can find a way to make it right. I am cut deeply.I hate it.I hatee myself for loving you.For giving you a chance.I don't what is it that I saw in you.I am shattered inside.Yes you were my type.Everything I wanted in a guy.But its over.I don't know why I don't seem to be able to forgive myself for loving you.I am so caught up.I am depressed. I never knew that you would kill me this way though you have left.Nobody is under my scrutiny but what I was to you lies a mystery.You put up my pics in your friendster and the whole world knew about us.. and now you bitch about me? I didn't know you were this nasty.I'll still love you the same and itll remain that way.I never thought I would fall in love after my past.I hate you for loving me. I really do. Now whats with your friend playing a fool? DOes he think my bestie is a doll?
Now if your influencing him.. fuck off, cause its not gonna be nice when the whole gang faces you.You rank highest it seems... fine .. if he is your 'brother' is that the way you would want him to be? Getting him into trouble? Hello! NOw its not only him.. its my bestie too.. if she ever gets hurt cause of this ..both you idiots will get it.What the fuck do you guys think? BIG GANGSTERS? If you guys were so inclined you would'nt have got into this kinda shit. Now talking about it makes me boil.I am fustrated .I really am. I hate the way things are I really hate it.










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