Its been crazy fun as of lately!
Like totally hanging loase and indulging in retail therapy is really what I needed.
I have been shopping,tutoring and doing my bridal stuffs.
I have been too busy and happy at the same time.
For some reason I feel much relieved and yes my heart feels really light.
I miss baby alot whenever I don't see him,its been really long since I went over his place and I really have to go and see his family soon cause I miss them.
Went shopping for a bag with baby and his friend yesterday.
Baby's friend JJ was laughing the whole time cause I was cracking crappy jokes,we went form bugis to dhoby ghaut to somerset to orchard to far east then to boonlay and back to my crib,tanah merah.I was proudly showing JJ my work of art with henna and he was like WOWW!!! this is good stuff! I popped in to MAC at Tangs,the colours carried by MAC is super bold and ultra sexy,its no wonder why my previous makeup artist used it on me when I did bridal modelling.I told baby that I am going to get the whole of MAC in my room,the very next minute baby and JJ gave me the "OHHH NOO" look.Cute lil fellas they are.I finally got my eyes set on one bag from ZINC at far east.Bags these days are so fugly.I wanted to get a GUESS one but I was afraid that it might get stolen like my previous one.SO yea settled down on a $42 Bronzy bag.It matched my uniform a great deal:) Thanks baby and JJ darling for bearing with my fickleness all in the vain of getting a bag. We went to CHAOS .. and godd the outfits there were really hot hot hot,baby and JJ were like..ooooohhh .Well I am gonna get some outfits from there with my next pay!

Today was bodyshop's ware house sale at suntec city.Okay okay I spent 300:)
Hehe,but it was worth the cash cause I am a bodyshop lover:)

Here is a peek to what I bought and baby quotes it as 'my expensive girlfriend's possession,this is where money can buy happiness!!' hahaha

I have 3 weeks to srtart work!:) I am pretty happy with that,cause I am finally goign to be totally occupied!I miss school alot though,the working world is going to be a new experience for me.I am now a full pledge staff nurse at kkh,paeds surgical side! Clap for me!! Haha... well I showed my academic transcipt and conformation letter to uncle anthony and her was extremely delighted and congradulated me.My family is full of nurses! yes I really mean it!The inspiration to be a nurse crept on me when I was 9.I wanted to be a doctor intially but I felt that nursing has more satisfaction.Now I have alot of things that I need to do.That is get armed for work,start waking up early,get my black heels and proper padding cause I am flat footed! Haha,the next.. my clips,cause I am always wearing my hair in different styles.A new bag to fit all my essentials,new contacts-mainly blue,amethyst,stockings to prevent varicose veins.

Well well... prior to that I need to get plenty of new stuffs,my makeup box is begging for more colours,so is my wardrobe and that means.... shopping!!! I need new lingeres as well,my uniform is pretty transparent and its going to be a feasr for the eyes of those who work with me!! :) I never wear skin coloured bras,I'm a die hard pierre cardin and beedies fan,now its my new found love,marks and spencer bras,now dad's bank account is going to run dry!

I am goign to erase the past,hurtful memories and start all over,give the one who had hurt me so bad another worthy chance,the truth is that I can never do without you,you said you'd be cheating yourself cause you'd be talking to me with the thinking that I am still your gf when I am not,I don't want to put you in such a situation,too much has happened between us and I can never leave you helpless,that's somethingI never ever do,I initially said that I wanted a break up to relieve you from all the problems that your having.I know that a relationship is stronger after every hurdle,but its not the case when the hurdles are a daily affair,sweetheart I love you,I need you terribly cause I know your the one I want to be with,you a typical epitome of my kinda guy.Spontaneous,sweet,sexy,cute,sporty,I love you tons darling,I really do,if I had one wish,itll be to be with you forever.I am sorry for hurting you,baby i love you.

Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and i'm all alone
Get me through this one
Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But i'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
No more looking i've found home
I'm gone away

I just don't understand your negligence,i dont,I dont understand your behaviour,do you know how painstaking it is? To feel the way I do.I swear I have had enough,darling we are better as friends,lets start it over,the right way,I am living a lie,I feel that,you take me for granted,I hate that,you don't even spend much time with me like you used to,you don't care,you really dont.I have enough,I have done enough,i cant hold on with someone who comes to me when he needs me and leaving me to fight reality when he doesnt need me.Girls out there,if your tortured like me,mentally, thinking about all the insecurities it better off getting over and done with everything.

I woke up feeling very puzzled this morning,been disturbed by many thoughts which have pertinent details of detruction and brutality.Its scary,I am frightened of abandonment,who isnt? Imagine if one day you wake up to find your loved ones have forgotten about you and your seen as plastic? The thought of it sends chills down my spine.I have made certain vows which I want to fulfill to be more accomplished,its as nitty as making an attempt to learn the art of cooking and as bombastic as getting a degree before I am 22.I have huge dreams of making it successful,I want to be someone people can turn into,depend on,things at home are way better than ever,I am happy that god answered my desperate pleas for domestic peace.As for my relationship,its going smooth but there are times where I breakdown.I have learned alot these past months,values of life,the importance of living for yourself and not others,its amazing how much I have grown,well sometimes I ponder and ask god, why me? but I realise its destined,whats written can never be changed,living through all of it makes you stand out from all the rest.So to everyone out there,live your dreams and follow your heart,no one knows you better then yourself,you live you live the way you want it ,you don't need to please others cause at the end of the day you are your own ranger.

The saying:'For things to change you got to change' is so true.
Things are fine,at least for this moment.
I am happy with the way I am .I drew up thia little book of all my WANTS,and top of it was to get a license,a degree,a cosmoprof diploma.I am have an immanse passion for makeup following nursing.I was raving all about makeup to baby,and he was like honey,I bet there is no more room for any new stocks in your huge house.I bit my lip and gave him that 'oopsy' look.Well I've alwaya believed in living my dreams,so why not,a cosmoprof makeup diploma is going to take up alot of my time but with my aunt's help I'd be able to do it,its no wonder why she is an cosmoprof examiner.Work is offically beginning in a month and a days time.I am having mixed feelings,that is excitement and anxiousness.Working with kids has always been a dream,and thanks to sister christine who gave me the opportunity to live my dreams,I am going to work with baby's aunt,che is the nurse cliician of the ward I am assigned to,I got to start mugging so that I have everything at my fingertips,well I am very particular about knowing everything about the job I undertake,it is only of ultimate benefit to me to maximise my potential,From the 14th of this month I have decided to start working out,mugging in addition to my normal schedule;which irreverently means less time for slacking! I have been slacking my ass of the past month and now its back to basics,that is books.Well I have always loved studying so itll be a breeze for me,I sincerly pray and hope everything goes well,god for I know with your guidance I can do it,I have been through the worst but I don't care because every downfall has made me tougher,every cut has made me numb,every pain has instill more sensiblity in me.I appreciate everyone who has been part of my life,I embrace those who are yet to be part of my life,I am truly happy now.

When she walked away from you feeling mad
[ He followed her for he knew I needed him]


When she pushed him or hit him
[ He hugged her tight ]


When she started cursing at him
[He said: i love you ]


When she was quiet
[He held her hand and asked what was wrong ]


When she ignored him
[ He acted cute so she'll notice him ]


When she pulled away
[ He pulled her back ]


When he saw her at her worst
[He told her he loved her and she still looks amazing ]


When he saw her crying
[He holds her hand and asks her what's wrong]


When she's scared
[He assures her he isnt going to leave her to face things all alone ]


When she lays her head on your shoulder
[ He tilts his head and holds her hand ]

When she teases him
[He teases her back and make her laugh ]


When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ He reassures her that everything is okay ]


He loves her
She loves him

I love you baby!!

♥ Tresca.
offically 20 on 2o/08

Loud,sarcastic,intellectual,conversationalist

Born a star,lives life to the fullest