Been tad a little entertained by a few mongrels,haha its amazing how a petty issue was brought out into great heights and the testifying party is subjected to unneccessary scrutiny,I have learnt something along the way,that people whom are affected by you will never stop bitching about you,conform to that fact,well give it a thought or two,will you forget someone who has left a huge impact on you?Be it bad or good,in my case its bad,so just sometime back an issue that died almost died off surfaced again,this time in a more open manner,through profiles,indirectly hinting me:) Wonderful!I have to make it clear,I aint giving a shit about what you guys have to say,come on if I had not affected you so much you certainly won't be talking about me,calling me something I ain't? Haha,GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT! Technology has advanced to an extent tha even bogusness would seem so real,what with you making me the subject? Hell yea you certainly have to get some sense knocked into your hard ass skull! I doubt if you even have anything in there,cause,EMPTY VESSELS MAKE THE MOST NOISE!I am sure you have some inkling about my status,and whatever it maybe,I have not bothered you anytime from that last time,so mind it,now who is the one who is poking their head and blowing certain issues,i aint affected by it,unlike you,haha I still remember the last time!Fancy you trying to be a wannabe,cmon your never my match,the best part is even a family member got involved,now whatever he sent was crap,haha I never meant any harm to you so just mind your own biz,once again its MY BLOG AND I WILL WRITE WHATEVER I WANT!go read the blogging rights before you come and talk to me,can't come to terms with it? FACE IT!I aint want to have even your breath over my loved ones,your such a wastrel,so just buzzzzz offf you redundant creature!

Am graduating in two weeks time,can't wait to work,I am finally enjoying my efforts,well my dream is to be a medical doctor in the end,papa was willing to pay for my studies but I rather pay on my own,I just love what I am doing now,happy as before,thank god to buddhism and yes that I can afford anything I want with all my effort,just want everything to go well,been planning for the future,what to do and the things I need to settle,going to canada seems really promising,and I'd be there in 4 years time should everything go well.

OUT YOU DAMN SPOT!

and to wellwisher,thanks for your tag,it was really appreciated:)

I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground
I'm hearin' what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down
But wait
You tell me that you're sorry didn't think I'd turn around and say:
That it's too late to apologize
Too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat, it's nothing new
Yeah
I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry lord, the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid
It's too late to apologize
Too late

I have to rant about a scumbag who is apprantly blantantly labelling me,well its not being anything that is affecting me but its off my boiling point,haha call me whatever you want cause I never cared,and you have no rights of such.I am ceratinly amazed at the way people pick on you for no rhyme or reason,can two people of the opposite sex be friends? haha! Well rave all you want about me,and yes someone who was the catalyst of this issue is acting like goody two shoes,I was telling mum and dad about the recent events,during a family conference and all they adviced was; you know you purpose here,and don't waste your in unwanted issues,know you close circle of friends and keep a distance from the ones who pick on you,well yes I know who I can rely my life on,and to those out there,don't judge a book by it cover,every book has its own story and so its mine,one of the clinical associates approached me the other day and he wanted to do a newsjournal on the illness that I have battled,I was really shocked at why he chose me,but yes there are very sensitive reasons which I don't wish to elaborate on.*happy happyy*Was planning for baby's 21st,and unfortunately his grandpa passed on.Grandpapa dearest rest in peace,lord take care of him.I am not that close to him though but he was someone I did aid in his ADLs.Well yea.I've got a two more weeks to graduate,time flies,at least I way BETTER THAN SOME PEOPLE OUT THERE.Haha,rant all you want,cause I don't care and to : -,- emotions are subjective just like pain,just read and leave,I don't need your crappy comments.

Maybe this decision was a mistake.
You probably don't care what I have to say.
But it's been heavy on my mind for months now.
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.
I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can't be.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

First off let me say congragulations.
I can see your doing well.
If I ever made you stagnant,I'm sorry,
Swear that I'm not tryin' to start no trouble.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise,
There's a question I just gotta ask.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times YOU made ME cry.
And I don't mean to interupt your life.
I just wonder do I cross your mind?

A dark and ominous cloud surrounds
and attempts to shut out the sun.
The joy and warmth of a heart of love
shines on. The darkness has not won.

A wavering deep within the soul
questions .. Was I wrong? Did I stray?
Why would this wound me so?
I ponder and I pray.

My God of love is always there
and He guides me through each day.
When I weaken and begin to question “why”.
He says, “my child, pray”.

For I will give you all you need
to “weather” such a storm.
Have faith in what you know is true.
My steadfast love transforms


I am totally taxed,feeling the heat,like a little puppy left to struggle,been through the toughest times many times,do you ever feel like you do everything to sustain a relationship and there isnt any response on the other side? When staying together becomes the ctalyst of self destruction and confusion,when you sit down in a dark room and think,what went wrong?Did I say or do anything on toward,may everything was wrong,being there,doing things for you,making you the prime of my life,coming down all the way to be with you,to see you.I never meant to intrude,I feel like a passive party in your life,never did you make me feel like I was the prime,to you its you and your games,not your gf.. well I forgot! Your friend said,its only going to last two months? Oh and it has been two months and more? I can possibly wait in this dark hole,it seems like your never going to change,everytime I cry over you,I feel like I am at fault,when I never knew what my fault was.I never remember making you all witdrawn and teary,ike how you made me,make me.I don't know what kind of happiness you have from making me cry my lungs out,look here,its paper lungs and plastic eyes,I have nothin else to say or no tears to shed,man oh man you know I really miss those times when we used to spend time just talking.Where has those happy moments gone to?you took away every damn thing with your absurd behaviour,I contemplate alot about us,but its crushed,and I'm busy mending that brutally shattered haert of mine.

Goodnite:(

Well its a brand new year and everything seems in place at least till now:) There is this person,yes a new friend of mine,a doctor,you know nad i agree with that statement you made about doctors:) So this was what happened:

Monday,morning,caught up with work,no student nurses around just 4 staff nurses,2 of them whom are the more experienced ones.There came the doctor,usual chatty self and yes I don't know why he loves to stare into my eyes and tell me how nice they are:) I finally had my breaktimr,I was shocked to see a present with a note inside my bag:) and it went: Dear ***** certainly was nice knowing among hustle and bustle of getting things done,its my last day here and since its the festive season,comprising christmas,newyear and your birthday I thought of getting you something,hope I could treat out soon.take care and keep in touch!

Isnt that really sweet of a doctor? Well thanks so much for the chocolates,it was a pleasure knowing you too:)wish you all the best in everything you undertake:)

It was a very nice way to end the year,and to my surprise the first person to wish me this year was him too:) poor boy was doing night ! :)


And yes happy new year to everyone hope everything goes as I planned:)

♥ Tresca.
offically 20 on 2o/08

Loud,sarcastic,intellectual,conversationalist

Born a star,lives life to the fullest