Fade ♥

Monday, January 15, 2007 ; 12:21 AM♥

You only see what your eyes want to see.. how can life be what you want it to be?
I'm frozen...
Consumed with how much is there left of me..
Wasting my thoughts.
I'm ripped of my thoughts..
give myself back to me..
Whats with you telling me to wait....
now there is no point in placing the blame..
and you should know i'll suffer the same..
if I lose you.. my heart will be broken..

Love is a bird.. she needs to fly.. let all the hurt inside me die.. i'm broken...

Whats with IT scrutinising my profile and inflicting painful words.. I hate her or rather it.. What gonna be of me? What gonna be of us.. if only u were reading this ....Y baby? y baby? did i hurt u in anyway? or did i say anything wrong.. if i did.. I am really sorry.. is this repentance for my sins?...Why am I facing this..I need you badly.. very badly...the very catalyst for my energy.. the source of my happiness... I am not so strong but I am faking my strength,I don't wanna be lost anymore..

Please baby .I need you.I want u.

Dear god.. please arrest me of my insecurities,
please protect my baby
he is going through hell in cantonment..
and protect my boi-panjang too
its been so long since I saw them both..
They are very precious to me.
Please god.. protect them..
I pray .I cry..
I am drained of my confidence..
The judge has to be leniant..I know my baby and boi-panjang.

I love them and I miss them.