Fade ♥

Saturday, March 24, 2007 ; 7:40 AM♥

I am feeling really fucked up.Mum and Dad are sort of contemplating divorce.Heated arguments are like an everyday affair.My ears can’t fathom.Here I am once again at a state where I am lost,miserable,fustrated.I want to do suicide at the state I am in.Its not breakups that is breaking me up.The very fact that I don’t get what I want makes me irritated.I badly want to loose weight but I cant resist my favourite chocolates!! But I am aiming to drop at least 4 kgs by end of march.
Well I will do it.
I know I can
I ain’t giving up!

Well I am really happy on getting a new laptop!!yeay!I met kaijing yesterday, we went to shaw towers to apply for a job.Mccafe that was.The job seemed quite classy and fun to do.I sat in for the interview.The interview consultant was really very nice to talk to. He shared with us some of his personal stuff and was asking m about nursing and the challenges I face.Well to me if you can work as a nurse any job is gonna be a child’s play.I mean if you sit hard and think about it… you’ll know what I mean.We then went to indulge at yoshinoyas.The last i went to ngee ann city was to meet fiz and prem.So full of memories.Kaijing and I were catching up on old stuffs and discussing about prayers. Well I told her how hard I am praying for my parents and fiz.I told her that I truely deeply love him and that I want the best for him.He is a gem of a person.And I know that he has a meaning for everything he does.I am really glad that he is doing fine.But someday I wish that a miracle happens and we click like before.Just so perfect.Yup I really want that day to come true.I am contended with the fact that even through all this I am still in touch with him.I just hope one day he would give me a surprise call or just turn up when I am meeting prem.Whoa that'll be a dream come true.I truely love him.

Dear god bring him back to me.