I am totally sick of all the shit that had been going on.

Tired,speechless.

I am gonna give alvin a nice one back.Stupid fella.. to think that I gave him face.Thanks to rekha and viki who like helped me out with alvin's matter.That fella is happily going around and saying I am his girlfriend.Godsake.. I hate players and he is only a friend to me and nothing more.I am totally sick of relationships ,breakups getting hurt.. all that shit.. To me if a person really loves ou he or she would never leave you.. and if they come back how could ou be so sure they aren't gonna leave you for another person.. i mean to think they did it once.. and the excuses are: i have lost my feeling for you,your controlling me too much,i dun't think we can go on.. arhh fuck.. I empathise with my friends who face breakups..jacob was complaining to me.. and I was like consoling him... my munkie is also facing one.. and its a hard hit on him.. he is putting up a brave front.. I know .. well in solitary confinement everybody thinks back.. I do too.. many times about him ... I went to look at the pictures we took:) I was really upset.. but then again I am happy we are still very good friends... it was a short relationship but yet the best one ever for me.. the stuffs he does... he is my favourite picture of me and him:

This shot was taken on my birthday.The best one ever.Hehe see we both were wearing the same colour and boy it was a coincidence:)

Though I have gotten over him I still care for him and will be there for him no matter what.I mean its really impossible to forget someone who was very precious to you and who was part of you once.I'd never forget my fizzie:)

Now its back into reality.. I have tons of projects to complete.I am the leader for my group and it gets the hell out of me..Vetting and consolidating.. it isn;t that easy after all.. for all those out there who think nursing is easy.. HELL NO.. it isn't at all....I have my cousins wedding coming up and exams as well.. boy I am so stressed.Mom and Dad have no time for me.Heck.My aunt and uncle are the ones whom I confide in .. I tell them almost everything..I can't wait for my holidays.I need a break cause I am breaking.

Last night I went for supper.. we ate alot.haha..roti john,mee goreng,prata,milo dinosaur.. I ate but mom knew about the guilty feeling I was having.. Arrr aneroxia... its just killing me by the minutes.. I can't take it sometimes..Well I have o cope with it somehow. I had severe cramps after that .. I dunno why.. and I took painkillers and slept... when I woke up and saw my phone,it was shawn.. ahh i felt darn bad. I wanted to talk to him but I was too sedated with the painkillers and slept..I AM SORRY MUNKIE. Was supposed to go out with kaijing to pasir ris park but I am still having my cramps.. and its getting the hell out of me. I got to start training for my napfa.I miss those times where I could exercise..since aneroxia.. the doctor told me that I have a weak heart and I have to be really careful with all the physical activities I undertake.I was like what the hell? Iam waiting for my TCU.I need to see the surgeon.. cause I know I am not doing that well. No worries though but its just a premonition that there is an impending blow that is yet to come. I really pray hard that I will be fine. Today I am going to start of with yoga and slowly progress to jogging.I have to get started on my tutorials and the skeletals of my projects.I can't wai to finish my course.I am going to miss my friends but working life is going to be better for me.I would have the freedom to get anything at all and indulge.I want to get grandma something really special. I love her soo muchios!! Well I am off for now.

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