Monday, May 21, 2007 ; 4:01 AM♥
Now you understand
Just why my head’s not bowed
I don’t shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say
It’s in the click of my heels
The bend of my hair
The palm of my hand
The need for my care.
‘Cause I’m a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That’s me.
I’m in a highly contemplative mood the past few days and I’ve found myself questioning the following issues many a time. I guess these issues are in my mind for a few reasons.There has been a buzz going on about me and someone.. well i dun even wish to talk about cause it makes me go crazy. Why is it that when issues are related to me the whole world seems to be updated.. Perhaps its just the way the world is. Sometimes I just hate the way things are.. why do guys get the wrong impression at me? Look here people.. I may dress so.. or perhaps portray such an image .. but you don't know the true me.. I aint the kinda girl you can mess around with cause when I hit.. I hit real hard.. Like I probably did to a few out there.. I aint the clubber,drunk arse sort.. neither am I the goody two shoes.. but I am just who I am.. its not a cry to establish my identity or whatsoever.. but its just too much to take.. what's with fuckin arse holes sending me all those messages.. HELLO I AINT THE TYPE YOU RECKON I AM. And those frenster comments which two significent who were once close to send to one another is FREAKIN SICKENING.. if you have issues with me.. handle it directly and dun hide it.. come on you can't even face the fact that I dumped you and go bitching around my back.. whatmore within a niffy your with another girl? Hello ? is that to spike me.. LOOK HERE IT NEVER WORKS FOR ME.. and even my once- best friend- is doing it to me.. wonder what else she would have bitched about behind my back to my ex.. sad to say but such people do exist.. I can't take anymore.. Brutal betrayal among friends? Cmon on bitch I did so much for you. Good souls are never forsaken.. and when it comes back its gonna hit you real hard.. but no matter what I am grateful for those moments we had together.. when I am all sad.. the times you met me.. the gym stuffs meeting up with your yishun town frens.. it was all just us.. :)
Memories never die..
I am stuck in this messed up web..
I just HATE things for the way they are..
But only some significent people make me feel like the present is heavenly. Sometimes I just wana cry out loud.. Thanks to my amazing munkie who never fails to brighten up my day.. I can just hugg him for the calls and little messages:) He puts a smile on my face ( I KNOW UR HEAD IS GONNA SWELL)
And for babyboo... i really hope he is fine.. he hasn't messaged me for quite sometime.. I really pray hard that he is fine.Those moments replay often in my mind.. and your just too precious to be forgotten.. inside us we know how much we mean to one another:) Sometimes I wonder whether you still remember those times.. the first time i met you in my uniform.. the way you loved hugging me when your all sweaty.The first time we held our hands.. the way you made me cry when you brought a cat near me.The first bus ride around CHOMPANG!! haha.. well that was funny.. the way you loved how hyperactive I was..sharing the same french fries and the way you commented why it was sweet cause we had a mouth to mouth transfer..the time where you almost died when I was in AnE at cgh,the way you loved biting my nose,the way you vibrated when you held my hands,your moon walk:)oohhlala.. you wearing black..so sexy!! us during my birthday.. pool and the way you took the chalk and put it on my forhead.. haha the play pretend wedding!!..it amazing.. and i had never felt so loved:) I wouldnt say I am not missing you. I would say I am nething without cause you taught me to love.no denies. i still do love you like before:)
