Friday, May 25, 2007 ; 9:50 PM♥
Yesterday was the most fucked up day of my life.I had to get my checkup doneIt was the review after the surgery I had. The surgeon gave me a shock of my life. It was something I didn't anticipate.. he said the opertion I had was a complicated one.. they removed a tumour,namely a carcinoid tumour. Now that tumour is associated with some hormones in the body.. I was like wtf? How come I wasn't even aware about it after the surgery.. I was really cheesed out.I mean its really unfair that I wasn't aware.I was then sent for a blood test.The dumb ass nurse didn't know how to take blood. I creid cause i was in pain.Her techniques was so screwed up.And a few minutes later blood just gushed out..cause she didn't apply ample pressure.. and I was grimacing in pain.. after an hour later my veins sweeled and the whole area was red. I was complaining to mom and she gave me a warm towel to place over that area. I felt totally helpless..I have to go for my ultrasound scan next friday to detect the size and location of the tumour,and I might have to go under the knife again. I am really scared to go for another operation.I really am.But if its cancer.. mom was saying that she would do all it would take to cure me.. but yea... there isnt any cure for cancer, I prayed last night.. really hard.. the last time I prayed this hard was for babyboo.. but this time its for myself.. for the tumour to not cancerous.I am having a lot of pain.I am really worried too.
