Fade ♥

Sunday, May 27, 2007 ; 9:13 PM♥

Yesterday was cousin's wedding.It was really beautiful.I totalli loved theway everyone of us looked.We were clad traditionally and the girls were OH SO GORGEOUS!! I will be uploeading the pics of the wedding soon. Mum looked really gorgoeus.Very beautiful.:) Well it was a tiring day day though and I know that I was the topic of the wedding.. Haha.. cause of the someone. Now I wana make it clear that I know certain stuffs and I am not gonna ask this person cause he is probably gonna deny it.. I mean whats the point? My cousin was literally criticising me for being with him but the truth of the matter is he is a person whom we all don't know. HE is someone very emotional inside, very insecure and feeding his needs through the wrong ways. He may have a bad reputation but he really nice. And the fact that he asked why do you keep saying you don't love me? rang a bell.. I am skeptical on side.. cause I have a premonition that its prbli one of his techniques.. and I can't let this particular person go cause he means a lot me.. (ONLI MY CLOSEST FRENS WOULD COMPREHEND THIS LINE) Why is everi1 against him ... I am empathising with him for the situation he is in,but all I ask is for him to not to do anything to himself..the fact that he was asking about breakups.. and all.. made me want to really break up.. but I cannever let you go.. cause we know it within ourselves why we can't.

Why do people poke their heads the moment they know we are together? Isnt it OUR BUSINESS? WHY IS THE WORLD SUCH A FUCKED UP PLACE a PLACE FULL OF CRITICISMS,DENIALS,BETRAYALS,INSECURITIES?

If your going to say your insecure.. I can say the same too.. You don't call,or message and expect me to it.. and when I don't I dunno what ur thinking.. but I am thinking wayward.. cause I am totally insecure.. and if only you would care.. your friends have asked me why do I even care about you if I don't love you?.... how am possibly supposed to confess when it seems like one sided love? But then again maybe its not.. all I ask is for a genuine and sincere you.. I can't possibly be sharing you with others.. I totally detest it.. I really want you to change... to believe in yourself.. to establish rapport.. but it will all go right if only you want to give it a shot.. cmon baby,I know you can.. I just hope the best for you.. and yes I don't want to hurt you at all.

I am stuck ,messed up and caught up .

I want to break free but it seems almost impossible.

I know you. YOu know me. WE know us.

God save me.