Friday, June 01, 2007 ; 9:51 PM♥
Why is it that people don't mind their own business.They seem to ace in betraying people. Sadly I'm associated with these kind of people.Things are not right at all. He is doing it right front of my eyes. Why is so hard to leave? I ask myself many times,but the other side of me asks if he is worth. He is certainly not worth.. but is it wrong to give someone who has defaulted a chance. Yes he may not be a smart as me.. but then again why THE HELL DO PEOPLE WANT TO GET INVOLVED. I just so hate this.. i was trying to work issues we had between ourselves.. but it seems futile. You dun fuckin hell care.. I too can do the same. You can deny all you want but their is strong evidence that your literally fooling around and making a fool out of yourself. What past is past.. prove people wrong.. your calls with others seems more important rite? you go ahead Im not going to bother you. You want to have fun.. go ahead.. i am not going to intrude. All I wanted is for you to be your best. And attain the highest level of happiness. I din't give you much cause I could sense what kinda person you were. Brutal betrayal is the title of the game. Why are you doing this to me? Why? So many questions are flodding my mind. I want to rescue you from your pain but I am getting hurt.. You know MR.. I have just decided to break free. Thats the best for now.. I have a bright future ahead of me and I know its not worth brooding over you. I can't take this mess anymore.
Went for my Ct scan yestearday. It wasn't good. I was in pain.. called him.. no answer.. fuck. To think that I even wanted to call him. I could feel the pain through my veins and it was generalised.I cried alot.. cause my veins were really thin and they had to flush in the sedatives... it was a daunting experience though. I just hope its not cancer. My veins are swollen and I am still in pain though.The drug made me so sedated.. all this pain is jus too much.. my health is killing me. Sometimes I just wanna die when I get the pain. Thanks to aneroxia nervosa. Which took the life out of me. An eating disorder is not easy to battle. I am still battling it. Only my ex bf helped me break free from it temporarily...
Now all I want is to live my life the way I want. Go ahead assume who I am.. cause I am not who you think I am..
Call me whatever you want..think of me as a bitch? a slut.. go ahead.. don't judge me if you farkin hell don't know me.
So much so ..I want to break free
NOBODY KNOWS ME.
