Wednesday, June 20, 2007 ; 12:33 AM♥
Well alot of stuffs have been happening and yea boy been a little too busy.Went for my colonoscopy yesterday.Boy I never knew it was going to be this painful.The houseman was really nice and he was saying how pretty I am :D then he asked if nursing was my ambition and stuff.. and I was talking to him for quite a bit till they wheeled my into the endoscopy room.And yea Dr Ang was like when is the next I would see you around?I just winked and said soon :) Haha.Well then I went in to the room and all I felt was the cold sedative running through my veins and the camera stuck up my ass,then gas was pumped and yea boy it was fucking painful..
I was crying and the nurses were patting my haed and wiping my tears as well. At the end of the procedure the surgeon gave me a hug.I was crying all along.. when I was wheeled back the pain got even more excrutiating.For a moment thought I was going to die, that was how severe the pain was.I came back home and the pain got progressively worse and I started puking bigg time.My sister and brother became frantic.And then I just slept. Well I woke only the next morning:)
Hmm .. well thats it for now..
Postop !!
My hand!!
Well there has been alot of shit going through my head,alot.I just can't seem to accept things the way they are.Its been perpetual hurting and yes can't hold it any longer.Everytime I think of it I just get so fustrated and back to square one.I just can't take it. I am totally going beserk but I know that god is looking at me,taking care of my needs.I feel pressurized.Dad has such high expectations and mom too. I have to be like the perect everything to them.Holistically! Period man!
