Fade ♥

Sunday, June 24, 2007 ; 8:56 PM♥

Its ridiculous the way people can change. Now I am not pointing fingers at anyone out there but yes my close friends would know who I am exactly I am drifting at .What's with you girl? going around and saying I am anorexic? I don't deny I was one. I was and I am not proud of it either. Come on everyone has setbacks ,problems and issues.. being an anorexic was just one issue in my life. I just can't comprehend why you are going around and telling people?! Despite the fact that I was anorexic, I managed to ace my studies and I have made it this far. Now I never bothered you in any way.So why are you?And for that person to claim that I think he is my life!? PERIOD! I never did things in the intention of getting back.I only did it cause I wanted to help you.And my help,concern and care seemed like I was a tyrant to you? I was closely following your moves? Gimme a break.Everyone knows that I loved you and you did love me to. No point in denying that.But for you to comment in such a crude manner despite the fact it was polite just puts me off. Now you could study shakesphere and be elite but you don't have the kind of thing in you which I thought you had.It is only humane to help people who are close to your heart and I did that but it seemed to you like I was after you?! Beyond imagination!!.. I never expected you to pen it in this manner..now I can't do anything if you want to believe her.you never bothered to talk things out.What you did to me was really unfair.. buying time to settle things you wanted to settle and faking .Is it fair to me? Ask yourself whether it was fair of you to do what you did to a girl like me.I never offended you in anyway neither did I hurt you.I gave you the best of myself.I cared for you.Even your friends were shocked with the things I did for you and told me why did I even bother? Now all that may seem like nothing to you...Its time I drew the line. Now don't you think that your my life cause you aint.My life revolves around my career and not you. Now I spread a clean sheet over my heart but still the lie and deceit exist cause sad to say people like you do exist.And as long as that bitch is bitching about me you'd probably buy her tales cause you would trust her more than you trust me. She even bitched about you to me.Call her a friend? God!

People all around you

Have to stop and stare

Some will even wonder

How those scars got there

I have bad scars too

Except mine aren't hard to hide

See yours are on your skin

Mine are deep inside

Yes my insides damaged

So cut up and torn

It's not because of sickness

Or because of 3rd degree burns

Mine are from the past

So dark and not well seen

I don't have anymore nightmares

In fact, I don't even dream

I'm so torn apart

Broken up and hurt

My life has not been pleasant

I've been tossed and thrown in dirt

The people I have trust the most

Have broken me and lied

When I do the right thing wrong

My life goes round and round

When I wake up the next morning

I'm lying on the ground

My heart is somewhat broken

I suffer from great pain

Some people stop and wonder

Is that girl insane?

Though people try to help me

Mend my broken heart

I'm starting to get better

But they'll never fill the part

The part that's dark and empty

Gloomy and ice cold

I'm hoping I'll get better

Or so I have been told

You and I aren't different

You suffer so do I

What you did was very wrong it

shocked me in the worst possible way.

You being the person you were

never would have done the things you did,

Or would have said the things you did say.

It seems so unbelievable,That you could betray

My cuts will heal eventually,They will turn into ugly scars.

All except a few that were left by you,

And they will stay on my heart.

I'm broken, cut, and bleeding,

On the inside.