Wednesday, June 06, 2007 ; 10:33 PM♥
Yesterday it was really nice hangign out with shasha. She just makes my day.We were apparantly talking about HIM. Now its not that I hate him,I am really disappointed with his behaviour. Sometimes I feel its my fault.Totally. If I had not entertained him ,things would have been so much better. And now your back with her. I am not sad.Not at all.I am happy for you.I am truely happy for myself that I got out of the mess
you created.The stuffs I heared about you,the prank calls I got,getting criticised by my family members for being with you.I fought back and protected you so much until I saw it for myself. I am totally sick of all this.I really am. I just want to focus.I just can't forget what you did to me. Although you werent a perfect boyfriend you had this thing in you.Yes I was blinded.But whatever it is.. you are a nice person ans as your ex girlfriend and I can't deny that,i am not supporting you but yes.. I have seen the nice side of you.. it could have been a play you put up..I wouldn't know.. but if it was fake .. you can go to the grammy awards.. I bet you'd win.I just hate to think that I was living a lie.While you were having a great time with god knows who.Why did you ever wanted me?I ask.You hear stuffs about me from fucked up random strangers and you believe it.First and formost LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU LOVE OTHERS. TRY TO TRUST THE ONES YOU LOVE AND DON'T USE WHAT HAPPENED ONCE TO WRECK YOU.
