Wednesday, July 25, 2007 ; 8:31 PM♥
I am feeling so pent up lately.Well yeah,fustrated for many reasons,I dun wana think about it,neither I wanna talk about it.I just cant stand friends who make use of you when they need you the most and then just pretend your transparent.Now I am a true friewnd and I have been there for my loved ones and sometimes its just sad when you get treated this way.NO hard feelings to anyone out there.I hate this feeling of neglection.It sucks totally.It really does. I have realised that there are very few people whom you can trust and tell everything and anything at all to.SOmetimes even the ones close to you can backstab you.How amazing huh? Brutal Betrayal is the name of the game. Heck.SOmetimes I just wanna run away from all these emotions,people whom tyou trust so much can betray you,people who you love so much neglect you.People whom your willing to die for blame you and make use of you.Well you name it.I have faced it.SOmetimes it feels like I am alone ranger,left to sketch my path and go down this lonely path where I walk ALONE.ITS ME . I just can't put it thorough that I am pissed when you make arrangements and then dun fuckin hell give me a msg or call to reconfirm it.YOu know what I am immune to it already,I really am.I hate this feeling of doing everyhting for that someone and then being ignored.Heck it.Well it is affecting me,but I know I can life with it.
MEt cousin Vik on tuesday,Well he is the only one that makes me go crazy with laughter.IT was so funny being with him,we went to get a new hp and then shopped around for dresses.After that I left to head home to complete my projects.Ghaya dearie called me and we were hogging on the phone as usual.WEll she is like MY REPLICA.haha.After that I had to go and help dad with his presentations .I did all the way to 1 am.*yawns* tired out man!! I met my mummy dearest yesaterday! It waas so fun with her.And everyone in school were telling me how good I looked.:) Well I am normal la!!Mummy and I went from JE to boon lay to bugis to tampines!! HahahaFunn! I miss her loads!! Came back home to have dinner *guilty shitass feeling came back again.* Hell! Well I think I am going to die of an eating disorder soon enuff.It seems like I am helpless and unable to to anyhting about that feeling.I know its wrong but yea.That fucking hell thoughts keep coming back.I hate it !
Got my pay today.Well ITS NEVER ENUFF!
These are the things I need to get:
HERBALIFE SHAKE
EYELINER
MAKEUP POWDER
THAT CELLULITE CREAM
TOPSHOP SHADES
ZARA TOP
ACCESSORIES
CLOTHES!!!!!
Pay my screwed up hp bill.
I hate you.I still miss you.
