Thursday, July 19, 2007 ; 2:04 AM♥
Everyone is happy with the decision that was made.EVERYONE.Thanks to all who stood by me.I am still accepting it.Not the fact that he has left but the fact that I was nothing to him.I am numb.I really am from all the undued attention he gave,the sweet nothings,I don't what or how I fell for all of it.Anf the fact that you can say:BABY YOU WERE THE TOUGHEST GIRL EVER. Well you came,you wrecked,you left.Is this is the way its going down,cause this is not the way to say goodbye.I have put you as my worst nightmare,I dunno whatever that is going through your shit hell head now.You can pretend but baby the world is a small place.Everyone is interconnected in someway or another.And ad for me..you don't need to say.YOU CAN ASK YOUR FUCKED UP BEST FREN AND HE WILL TELL YOU IN YOUR MAMA LINGO "Deh she ponne NAP da!You should see her dance da deh.. sudu eridum"Yupp well your frens are certainly deprived like you.Thanks for doubting my love,knowing the soft side of me and always trying to dig that very vulnerable side of me,boy you know me really well.And if youe ever going to bitch about me.. thats it MR your gonna get a big hell load of shit from me.. or rather wait.. from those who are around me.This was something i never contemplated.YOU WERE THE ONE WHO IMPEDED MY PROGRESS.YOU WERE THE ONE SCRUTINIZING MY PROFILE>FUCKIN HELL.. Ask your damn self.whos fault it was. now self talking is never going to work for.cause your a fucked up person with a character that stinks totally and stop telling people that you loved me.You said FORGET IT.PRETEND THINGS NEVER HAPPENED? Well I am the one who is going to benefit.Cause it your loss that you lost me.In have nothing to lose.I have everthing,A beautiful family,loyal friends,money,and a luxurious and happy life..the happiness accelerated when you came into my life but later then I knew it was decelarating.How did I ever let it affect me.I am honest about how I feel.I feel like a wretch,a lost soul.So much had happened that I am hating everyhting and I am afraid.I am really afraid to fall in love,that's the impact you have left on me.Why am I affected so much? I don't know.I really don't know.You know my character,I am a perfectionist,a high achiever. I want htings to go by the path I sketched it to.I have always worked hard for whatever I wanted.But I am a failure to you? Well maybe in your life I am.Cause you were a failure yourself,The lies you weaved were intricate and I was innocent,rather stupid to bu them.YOu said you changed,pleaded for the second time but you blew it .You blew it all.And fancy turning it all around and making it seem as if I am a bad girl? Why MR? Is it because I found out your promiscuousity? And are that afraid that I might spread tales about you? Well there is no need for that cause you have been labelled ny the society :***** is A MALE PROSTITUTE.Wad a name.Ask youself is what your doin fair? Thank god to my friend who pulled me outta this mess you were trying to create.Thanks to her or else I know that I will fall again and never be able to get up.UR A LUSTY BASTARD WITH SEXUAL NEEDS THAT NEEDS TO BE ADDRESSED LIKE HUNGER PANG,ITS YOUR HOBBY. Your a total disgrace to the society.Why do you even exist? I hate you!
