Monday, July 30, 2007 ; 2:18 AM♥
What if I?
Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?
Or would they still apply?
If I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy
Can't be get'n mad!
What You Mad?
Can't Handle that!
Can't be get'n mad!
What you mad?
Can't handle that!
Wish we could switch up the roles
And I could be that...
Tell you I love you
But when you call I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me?...
Like where you be at?
Its like Im hating every bit of you.You killed me.Remember what goes around comes aornd.Whats with your ex gf or wait> I dun noe her gender! Bitchin about me among her family and friends? Look here she cant be me so fuckin hell ask her to buzz off,you were like the perfect initially and we were close to getting back and now.. I am certainly happy its over.YOu know sometimes its not your fault,its mine for giving myself an opportunity to fall in love again.I am numb.Two scrwed up relationships,being treated like plastic.Holy shitt.Its too much to take.I state my stand. There is hardly anyone you can trust nowadays.I have been through it.I mean what sort of a friend is a person if they only come to you when they need help?And the rest of the time just ignore you? Well the name of the game?.. Ignorance is bliss.I hate it when I am treated that way.I really hate it.I am withdrawing away .I really am.My diet is taking a toll.It feel like I am putting poison into my mouth.I can't afford a relapse cause my body is a state whereby what ever I do can make it or break it.I wish I wasn;t the way I am now.Mum would kill me.I dun noe what's happening.I really dun.The weekend was fun.It really was. My siblings make my day.I was telling dad about how much I wanted that very gorgeous white and golden gown.Papa wanted to get it for me.. but he was hesitant cause it was very expensive,mum on the other hand was on his side too! :( disappointment! Cause I looked like a million dollar in it.It was really nice:) Hiazz! I am going for pilates and yoga now:) Yeayness!Next would be belly dancing and bhangraerobics!!I feel so much better now that I'm working out and stuff.Ohh yea!! I bought a bikini!!:) whoohoo.. I wanna workout too fit into it! Its a very gorgeous blue bikini.I love it! haha id be putting up a pic of myself in it soon:P
Rebekah was telling me how much she misses hangin out with me and yea my bummerboy too.Well everyone is busy with sch.And my exam dates are out!
16Aug,17Aug,21Aug,23Aug
Im so screwed cause I havent started any shit ass thing.Man oh man where is that studying side of me gone too? Well oh well its time I revamp every shit out.From school to home to my friends to my EVERYTHINGG
I have to start studying.
This is my typical day,wake up,pilates,shower,bfast,school,home,yoga,dinner,slack,sleep
Slack has to change to STUDYING!!
Two weeks and then itll be holiz.Im teaching during the holiz.Yeay! At lest Id have something to do.I am so happy I got this bridal makeup modelling to do:) yeay! I am signing on again:) After I become more toned.Well I was once like stick thin and yea...Argghh aint wanna think about it
Well thats it for now.
I miss my grandmummmmyyy,mummyyy,my darlinggg seanieeee:)
