Monday, July 09, 2007 ; 3:35 AM♥
Its been preety long since I blogged.Well plenty of shit has been going through my mind.Yes I STILL can't LET YOU GO.I don't know why.I really don't.Your like a malignant virus.Now you can deny it all babyboy but it yourself that your cheating.It somehow feels weird but I am doing ok but sometimes I just feel itll be better with you around.About all the shit..I don't wanna mention.There was a real replica of you.I SWEAR ! And man I got a shock of my life cause I had this very feeling it was you.I went numb all over.I really did.Wish I could switch up worlds.You treated me literally like a toy.I still can't accpet it.But I reackon I'm just too vulnerable.You never did reply to my messages which I sent you long back.Sometimes I wish I was the boy.Ur messing with my head again.I can't take it boy.I really can't. I dont hate you.I am freakin disappointed.I really am.The words you uttered it really hurts.Now you can get anyone you want but boy ask yourself who your cheating.. its ultimately yourself,I am stuck within four walls,your lies,your betrayals flash through my mind like a movie that never end.I wanna run away but your thoughts are holding me back. DO you feel like a man when you affect a girl like me? What did I do? You said it all my fault Hello? Excuse me.. ask ask ask who is the one at fault.Here I am in my room crying like an ass while I type this do fuckin hell care? NO you don't. You fucking hell wanted another chance .. you proved you were worth it and now you did this.Its been awhile since we spoke yes.. I dun deny that I miss you,I really do.Cause you were part of me for a few months.One last chance seem like a game of lust to you.I am forced to think the world is hell.I really am.Cause I am totally affected.My mentor was kind enough to call me up and speak to me.And now its ultimately me.My decision.Now I have decided.I AM going to forget you.I am.Part of me is still in you.Boy I am high maintainence.You can never fit my bill.NEVER.EVEN IF YOU DID..I KNOW YOUR GAME. I am forgetting you.Its time I did.I wanna move on.I am.From this minute.I DUNO WHO YOU ARE.Lets pretend we never had anything.Well you know and I know what you did to me was really unfair.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
