Monday, July 30, 2007 ; 10:05 PM♥
Ok last nite was nice=)
Went for dinner with my siblings.
Ate at a cafe near my house.
It was sooo damn nice la!
As usaul I was camwhoring,shortly after Dad joined us.
He stepped out for a little while,god knows why,probably to discuss something with a client who called.
My siblings wee enjoying the meal...We ordered sandwiches,doughnuts!!,Soups,Yummmmy!
I was picking on food.god knows why,and then the guilty feeling came again.*Die la*
After dinner we headed home.We walked!! hehe well well.. my family members are so jaga badan type.Dad was particularly concern with his pot belly.Sis was concern abt her height,brother.. nothin...yet.. mom.. hmmpph.. HER HAIR!! ME?? EVERYTHINGGG!
AN is killing me slowly.It is.Thoughts of refuting food,not eating is dominating my sanity.I hate it.I hate the way things turned out.BECAUSE OF YOU I DUNNO HOW TO EVER LET ANYONE IN! I AM STRANDED . I REALLY AM. Iis time YOU start YOuR game again HUH? Fuck! Start and stop bugging me.Your fucking hell smart in the game of LUST.I know it.I HATEEEEEEEE YOU ! I REALLY DO!DAMMNIT!
Stuck up in a world of my own,runaway love.Runaway now.I hate everything,it hell inside me.My scars will never heal.I just wish I could shoot you down and ud never be able to get on your feet again.But I only wish! There is the other side of me which doesnt wanna hurt you.That's the soft side of me.I am still emotionally unstable.I really am.I hate hate hate you.
I hate LOVE,MEN,YOU,EVERYTHING!
