Fade ♥

Tuesday, July 24, 2007 ; 2:35 AM♥

If I told you once, I told you twice,
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,
With nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.

If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain away.

I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.

Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
And call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

P.s Im still NOT over you

Why did you have to do that? I just cant accept it. I hate you so much.Don't blame me if you get beaten up by my frens.They hate you and baby watch your back.
I think I am scumbing into AN.I really am.The thoughts are coming back.I am living a life full of confusions.My diet regime is haunting me.I am afraid of getting fat.I am scumbbing into the mess I got into years back. GOODBYE FOOD! HELLO ANEROXIA. I hate myself for doing this to my body though.I loved it when I was skinny.Isnt it better to stop the nervous cancer of getting fat by not eating.Everytime something goes into my mouth I am afraid,afraid of my weight.I am a hefty 58,I used to be a 43. Where did all that weight comes from?I hate my doctor for putting the weight back.I really hate it.I just wanna lose weight.I am so so so so so afraid. I really am.I am damn scared I'd become to big to fit into my clothes.I can't feel my bones enough.People may think I am crazy.But this is the truth.I am wasting away and dying slowing.This feeling inside me is killing.I can never be perfect enough,skinny enough to satisfy myself.I can never be smart enough to get the grades I always want.DAmn! And whats with YOUR friends tryina hook up with me? See the kinda life I am living? Guys thinking I am easy to get just because I went on with a player? Fuck! I hate everything.I have decided TO LIVE MY LIFE MY WAY . THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE. THATS IT! I can't hold on any longer.I am honest. I still miss you.