Fade ♥

Monday, August 20, 2007 ; 11:09 PM♥

I swear the lecturer's are out there to kill us!
My oh my!
Fuckin hard! Management was like unmanageable.I was mugging the day away.I met yoga for a little while to pass him my notes.Poor fella looked pretty tired from studying.Was helping mugilan with his med surg and mugging at the same time.I was having fever and sorethroat which made it even hard to stick to the chair.I kept walking restlessly around the house with my notes.I completed management by 8pm and then started on community health.Well I really want to ace this paper but it seems somewhat impossible.Killer boy! I swear by it.

Am missing alot of people.My darlings,my mum,my sexy bummer,everyone infact.Gotta call em all up;)

Saturday was cousin Rekha's wedding.It went smoothly except for some coflict here and there.Ramesh looked really good,and i'd say its a match made in heaven cause honestly both model material! :) Whoohooo! Well the dance florr was the hottest.I was dancing away with so many nattans:) Hehe! Well well they were all awesome dancers! Sunday was spent at grandma's place.My darling turned 63! Happy Birthday mumma!! I love yoo.She cooked dam briyani! Which is finger and toe lickingg good I swear.She is the best cook! Sis and I bought a cake for her,we had a mini party,then started fooling around as usual.I went high on nougats and dancing to Impacto by daddy yankee.Wooo i swear he is hot!

Yesterday I was somewhat taken aback by this particular person's behaviour towards me.I really was pleasantly shock.Amazing you having a gf and ot being serious.Well player? And for YOU MR! to introduce him to me.Haven't you known how much I have been through and the emotional turmoil that I got insanely twisted in? Man oh man.I hate hate hate hate players .I am pulling myself away from every shit that even my existence is bring questioned.Cause there is this someone whom I am attracted to.I feel its a one way thing but then again I dun want to think about it.Cause everytime I do everything comes back,the fear,the tears,the betrayal,my screams,my insecurity.I don't wanna got through it again.I never felt anything like this before.I am depressed.fustrated.There are so many thoughts going through my head.Everything is coming back cause of what you said the other day.Sometimes I wish I never met anyone like you.But then again I should just shut my thoughts away cause at the end of the day I don't want you to feel that my insanity is your fault.You disappointed me umpteen times and I gave in.. now there is this someone whom seems like a replica.. but only a better version in some ways.Why is it so hard?