Wednesday, August 22, 2007 ; 7:11 PM♥
Today was the last day of everything;Schoolwork,books,lectures,Exams!
The paper was somehow do-able.I woke up at 3 am to mug,thanks to sayang who woke me up.Thanks sayang=) Well yea I was kinda enthusiastic to study but I was only able to pull through till 4.30am.I slept again! God! I then woke up at 6 am and got ready.Well thats was my life this morning.I got a very very very sweet message frm my baobei this morning at 6.30! She was saying how much she is gonna miss me and stuff.. and I started crying cause she is really close to me.And she isn't the only one I am going to miss.Im gonna miss loads of people.Saidah,Rajin,JAGDEEP! Cynthia,Kak MAi,asha,soneya,baobei,fatimah,rabiah,angie,MISS CHIA!,DOROTHY!Geetha,Zhimin,Thapa,Farhana,nugget,Jingjing...aiii the list would never end..I have a problem detaching cause these people were like my essentials.I'd need a dose of their presence somehow.Now that I am on 6 weeks of vacation its going to be hard to see them everyday.But attatchments would somehow help..cause I'd be with a few of my cliques=)Well well.
Asha messaged me last night wishing me luck for my paper.Such a cute lil girl.And we were planning our crappy stuffs already.Hahah asha!! Doctor ah! :P U said it!Well my six weeks is gonna be packed with gym,tuition classes.I am going to make time for soka meetings.Somehow.I have to.Cause my existence and sanity is through prayers.I am feeling a little pent up,fustrated recently.I don't know why.Its hard to determine the catalyst cause many things have been going on.And somehow kaijing and i have this thing.. whenever I think of her she would call me! or message me! I miss her truckk loads too. Well back to what I was saying.Its the past that is haunting me so badly.I was pouring out my feelings through messaging asha yesterday morning.Cause there is this person whom I am atrracted to.I really am.He is not the whooaaa kind.. but he is just a very nice person,someone with a good character.But something really put me off when cousin said that he was attached but isnt serious.I was like what?! Amazing!Well I am in no situation to judge him cause I don't know him that well.Cousin was saying that if we both get together he cant fool around cause he will get it if he were to screw up anything.Well causin fren who is MR ATTRACTIVE's friend was also saying the same.Casue they both know the shit I have been through,slapped hard 2 times,brutally betrayed when I didn't do anything at all to hurt the other party.All I wanted was for things to go smoothly, and when I attempted to ,they made it seem as if I'm the one at fault and to be blamed.I have played this game two times and fell so badly that even until now everyhting that happen is crystal clear.I am broken so badly inside,cause I sucks when the one you love ignores you totally and comes back to you only when he feels like it.Treats you like doll.Well that was the relationship I had.
This time last year was the most amazing time of of life,Cause that was when I met babyboo.I still remeber all the things we did together,the laughs, the tears,the pranks,your stupid yellow watch,french fries! mouth to mouth feeding:P you trying to read tamil!!!catching around the blocks! your smell:) your stupid sweaty face and the way you'd hug me,my blonde hair which your mum found very nice.Its all memories.I hope your doing good babyboo.cause you'd always be my baby though we arent together.
