Monday, September 24, 2007 ; 11:34 PM♥
Truth hurts.I should have known from the start that when you came around you were gonna make me cry.How was I so stupid to not avoid everything.I hate it that she is in the picture.I mean hello? Your ex gf visits you.. well heck.. visits your parents? Shouldn't she know how to maintain her distance now that you have broken up.I dunno how to put it to words about how screwed up I am feeling.I have been through too much that I was afraid of loving again.Maybe this is all my fault for giving myself another chance.For thinking that you were worth a thought.I should have drawn the line from the start,I really should have.I can't hold it any longer.I hate this shit.I want to move away but it will be hell for me.Why can't you understand.How would you feel if I did the same thing to you.YOu didnt even recognize from my voice that I was crying on the phone when you were telling me certain things.I appreciate that you open up to me.I really do but the part where that whore said certain things..it hurts me it really does.Even my best guy friend knew I was crying.I am feeling very insecure.Im just crying and crying.I don't know why things have to turn out this way,cause for me if I let go,there is no turning back.There really isn't.I have too much of issues to worry about and I must say that I have been in tears since that night.I can't accept certain things.I really can't.If your hotcakes among the girls..its really ok with me..but please maintain your distance,its really hard for me to accept certain things after what my cousin told me.Its hard to come to terms but I believe people can change.I saw the change but it seems stagnant now,its like your going back to your old ways,what did I ever do to deserve all this? I never asked you anything,I never did anything at all to hurt you,I never.Thanks thanks,I deserve this and more.
Well no doubts I still love and care for you the same.
