Saturday, October 13, 2007 ; 8:26 PM♥
You just feel it coming but you don't know when itll happen.
Well that's my current mood.
Ended up in changi general hospital's AnE on thursday.Met bro in law and sis after work which was around 6pm.Was very upset with every shit that I was going through.I had enough of everyhting and the best advise everyone gave me was to give up on him.I don't know why I want to give him another chance,but yes the lost trust will remain that way.I am not saying I don't trust you anymore but yes the trust I had on you has gone down by alot,the things you hid from me are now crystal clear,thanks to that girl but then our conversation became a little awkward towards the end,I was totally cheesed out when you said that he will choose you over me if your in the picture again,cmon girl I was nice enough to tell you that its ok for you to talk to him once again and you telling me that if your in the picture he will choose you over me? Thick skin bitch! Damn you, damn everything,so much so for me even opening my mouth about allowing you to talk to him.Ive realised many things,one of which is that there is hardly anyone you can trust,yes I mean for you to know him for such a long time and tell me everyhting that happened between the both of you, even the confidential matters shows how much of a human you are,well im not saying what you told me was wrong but sometimes you just don't realise how much of pain you have inflicted on me,it takes two hand to clap,your not to be blamed solely,for him,I don't know how he is taking this but this is my last straw thats for sure,one more shit and off I will go with a nice goodbye,cause baby I have nothing to lose,One thing my very good friend said was ttrue,that is about him bringing only tears to my eyes,thats so true,well he has brought smile to my face but there have been more tears then smiles eventually,I can be sucg a pain at times especially when things like this happen ,do you know that I was so upset that the doctor in AnE diagnosed me with stress related disorders,And told me that if I am not goign to be careful I am probably going to die of stresse related symptoms,like a vessel in my brain bursting which is called aneurysm.I don't want that kinda thing to happen to me,cause I ahve so much to achieve,Thanks for bringing me down and thanks to my friends who kept my spirits high.Thanks.And shasha!! thanks for doing my ecg and jabbing me! Ikept laughing when I saw the video! And my bro in law thanks for holing on tight to me when I was nearing unconsciousness,barrison darling for coming to see me in AnE,Asha darling for checking on me throughout,Joel,my doctor and colleague who cracked some jokes to see that smile of mine which he loves,the radiographer who started cracking even more jokes,my sis who stood there with me,through my blood tests,jab and for clearing up my vomit.thanks babysister.I love you lots.And naresh for telling my sis to screw up you know who! See I am surrounded by wonderful people and nothing can replace my gratitute and love to them.
