Wednesday, October 31, 2007 ; 6:26 AM♥
Sometimes it hard to fake your smile when your hurt so badly inside,what did I do to deserve this.Haven't you put me through enough torment? Sleepless nights slit wrists.It maybe a figment of my own perception but isnt what I perceive reality?everytime we are this close to perfection you do something to inflict pain,Boy did I ever let you down? Boy did I ask you much? Boy there's this significent character who is being unreactive but is undeniably the catalyst of my insecurity. Boy what is it in me that you want? Boy do really love me? Maybe I am not good enough as a girlfriend,maybe I can never love you as much as your ex's..Im sorry if I haven;t kept you happy.Boy sometimes your words hurt me,but your unaware,boy I have always wanted to speak to you about these things but I couldnt bring myself to cause I don't want to hurt you.Boy I am at my wits end at what to do,boy I did so much for today and all you could say you were "malas to come". Did I prepare all of those special things to hear those word from you? Is it so hard for you to make time for me? Well Im sorry if I have been consuming too much of your time,of which you can spend with your friends.Boy there are slits in my wrists,its a reflection of my pain,after all the pain you have put me through you tell me your lazy come,I made my way all the way down many times even thoguh I was shagged,I came all the way.But its ok,its me,I do things for my loved ones and I never get appreciated.Pain is never new to me.My depression is engulfing me.I just have no valet to vent my depressive mood,Why boy ? Why are you doing these thngs to me? I know u'd never read my blog,well you probably never cared that I have a blog.
Boy I have no words to say.My veins are bleeding,my eyes are swelled from all the crying,I just don't know hoe insensitive you can get,boy I really don't know how to put this across to you.
Im sorry for the pain Im putting you through,you probably think Im a pain in the ass.
