Friday, November 09, 2007 ; 6:51 PM♥
I'm so tired of being here,so pressed be all my childish fears,sometimes your presence won't leave me alone,my wounds don't seem to heal,the pain is too much to take,there's just too much time cannot erase.Boy I held you close to me,boy I have always said your my one and only,why is that your have to hurt me time and again? The things you say sometimes hurt me,but I don't want to point it out,cause baby I have already done too much,I am giving up on telling you.My sanity is being engulfed each minute.Boy do you feel the pain in me?Do you even care? Once, twice,never mind,I have tried so hard to forget everyhtign,but you keep saying things that rekindle everything that has happened.You have been the one closes to my heart all these few months,I should have known certain things fron the start,you know its so true that,in a moment anything and everything can change,there are many conflicting issues,I don't want to hurt you,thats why I am shutting up,you care so much about hurting me,but its of no use,cause you have hurt me alot,first there was this slut,then your behaviour,damn those memories,boy you aint nothing like the guy I thought I knew,I know I have my flaws too,pardon me if I have hurt you,everyhting is my damnnit fault,for forgiving and forgetting,for being so close to death for you,I have been rewarded by getting hurt again.I want to be there for you, through your joy and sadness,through you tough times and smooth times,I don't know if things are ever going to be the same between us again,baby I don't to fight,the battleground of insecurities is getting the hell out of me.Tormenting me,boy why do you have to do such things to me.And to those who have been missing that bubbly,crazy girl in me,I am sorry,that girl will be back real soon.To my parents,sorry for the depressive maniac crisis times,to my friends and lecturers,you guys mould and bring out the best in me.
