Fade ♥

Sunday, November 11, 2007 ; 10:50 PM♥

There are so many things that I wish I could change at this point of time.Certain things I wish I never did,certain people I wish I never met,certain relationships which could have been corrected,certain relationships which should have been maintain or never started off,cause through this critical period I have learnt the value of life,my life,how precious I am.It took one unsuccessful suicidal attempt to change my life,for the better thats for sure,time and again everyone who have been calling me up and seeing how I am doing have been telling me that Im precious.I have learnt that problems always exist,its just a matter of hoe you handle them,I have learnt suicide is never ever the way out,I have learnt to live for myself and never in the scrutiny of others,I have learnt that only I cam keep myself happy and I decide everyhting that can happen or will happen,cause I have learnt it the hard way,yes the lethal way,what I attempted was drastic ,yes,but it has impacted me so much that itll be one thing I will never be able to forgo in time to come,to all those girls who are crying for help,please go get a counsellor,go get help before you go into a crisis,and when crisis strikes its never going to be pleasant one. And I sincerely thank my hospital staff,my lecturers,my dynamic friends and yes my wonderful family and the love of my live for being by my worst moments,I truely appreciated every bit of effort that you people have put in,I have seen how much of a valuable preson I am .I am sorry for the disappointment,yes dad I know you never wanted things to be thins way.Itll never be like this anymore,I have attained priceless knowledge that can never be learnt through books,that is the art of love and the importance of believing in your ability and maximising your potential.
thanks to my psychiatrist who has seen me all the way through.I owe you.I really do,this entry is quite an emotional one for me cause I really want to put it to everyone out there your life is precious.