Fade ♥

Sunday, November 18, 2007 ; 10:43 PM♥

Alot has happened in the past weeks,somehow for some reason I have been feeling a little better.Thoughts of some annoying slut is racing through my head.Some truth is made crystal clear.I have to sincerely thank my friends,family and lecturers and my amazing psychiatrist,Dr Chong Herng Niang.There ia one important thing that I have learnt,that is life is fragile,it took me a few weeks to come to realsie that cause nothing was sinking into my head since the admission,and yes Dr chong ur words have made me a stronger girl,sometimes I just thank god that I have so many people who care for me and love me.Cause many times the one I love,loved cut me deep,some questions still do exist,you know something I am never going to do such a thing in the name of love,cause my loss is gonna be your gain,I still don;t know why I cant come to terms with whatever that happened between that useless ite slut and you,I really cant,but baby the truth of the matter is your beloved(ME),is a popular girl,with beauty and arrogance and she certainly doesnt deserve to be treated the way you treat her,I know I can get anyone I want.. but baby Im not like that slutty ex gf of yours,i really am not,I really wan to break away from all the pain ,the torment cause everytime I think of us I cry silenty,I cry inside of me,whether you see it or not is besides the point cause it seems like your oblivious to my feelings,baby why why do you have to cut me so deep,Im so numb from all the pain that I had to drown myself in pills,a suicide uncompleted,you know how fcked up I feel whenever I think of what I did? Baby the damage is done,and although I know I must be leaving I cant some to terms with leaving you like that cause baby you gave up a significent slut of 4 years,maybe itll all take time,but till then I am, I will be that emo kid you wish you never knew.

*god bless*