Saturday, November 03, 2007 ; 5:19 AM♥
Have you ever felt there's nothing you can do to salvage yourself from the pain your in? Have you ever felt like there is no one who understands you? Have you ever felt so restless and tired to the extent of exhausting your existence? Well I did.A rash decision which almost took my life away,it was the stupidest thing I had ever done,all I remember was screaming in pain and then popping a cocktail of pills to drown in my pain.I felt like a loser , misused,cheated and everything that'll possibly drive a person like me paralysed with sadness.I can't explain why I was depressed,but Im sorry to everyone whom are close to my heart,it was a decision which could have driven me to grave.What was I thinking? I hate myself for doing it,i was apparantly depressed with everything,home,school,my relationship,my past relationships,everything,it came in one go,and the decision I made was life threatening.My friends,family,lecturers were really supportive of my recovery and beng wah,kumari,bella,barbara,you people have made a difference in my life.I'd never ever forget you guys.Im still recovering though.Thaks to my baby who has been there for me. Baby Im sorry for putting you through all this shit,your not to be blamed.I love you my boy,i love you loads.you have been the best thign that has ever happened to me.And i can never find anyone better i this lifetime,boy I love you loads,I love you more than anything in this world.Boy please dun't hurt me,cause Im badly broken inside.
