Monday, January 07, 2008 ; 5:29 AM♥
Maybe this decision was a mistake.
You probably don't care what I have to say.
But it's been heavy on my mind for months now.
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.
I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can't be.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.
I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?
First off let me say congragulations.
I can see your doing well.
If I ever made you stagnant,I'm sorry,
Swear that I'm not tryin' to start no trouble.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise,
There's a question I just gotta ask.
I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?
I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times YOU made ME cry.
And I don't mean to interupt your life.
I just wonder do I cross your mind?
A dark and ominous cloud surrounds
and attempts to shut out the sun.
The joy and warmth of a heart of love
shines on. The darkness has not won.
A wavering deep within the soul
questions .. Was I wrong? Did I stray?
Why would this wound me so?
I ponder and I pray.
My God of love is always there
and He guides me through each day.
When I weaken and begin to question “why”.
He says, “my child, pray”.
For I will give you all you need
to “weather” such a storm.
Have faith in what you know is true.
My steadfast love transforms
I am totally taxed,feeling the heat,like a little puppy left to struggle,been through the toughest times many times,do you ever feel like you do everything to sustain a relationship and there isnt any response on the other side? When staying together becomes the ctalyst of self destruction and confusion,when you sit down in a dark room and think,what went wrong?Did I say or do anything on toward,may everything was wrong,being there,doing things for you,making you the prime of my life,coming down all the way to be with you,to see you.I never meant to intrude,I feel like a passive party in your life,never did you make me feel like I was the prime,to you its you and your games,not your gf.. well I forgot! Your friend said,its only going to last two months? Oh and it has been two months and more? I can possibly wait in this dark hole,it seems like your never going to change,everytime I cry over you,I feel like I am at fault,when I never knew what my fault was.I never remember making you all witdrawn and teary,ike how you made me,make me.I don't know what kind of happiness you have from making me cry my lungs out,look here,its paper lungs and plastic eyes,I have nothin else to say or no tears to shed,man oh man you know I really miss those times when we used to spend time just talking.Where has those happy moments gone to?you took away every damn thing with your absurd behaviour,I contemplate alot about us,but its crushed,and I'm busy mending that brutally shattered haert of mine.
Goodnite:(
