Thursday, February 28, 2008 ; 6:16 AM♥
God give me strength to overcome any hurdles,
god show me compassion and help me stay strong,
I have been feeling really lost at what to do recently.
Thoughts have been patronizing my mind and my head feels heavy,
I am really worn out,things happen for a reasom they all say,but is it all true? I wonder.I have always wished that things turn out the way I want it to,I have dreamt of a luxurious life with all the happiness,why is it that whenever I am happy the next minute I have to worry about is when will it come crashing down?
Practically being perfect isnt all,being a perfectionist on the other seems destructive to many,I don't think so.I am trying to accept things the way it is.I feel so lonelu inside,I get want to break free from my emotional torture,the feeling of depression doesnt get the better of me,it leaves me shagged and worried,I miss school,I miss my friends a great deal,I miss my lover boy even more whenever I am not beside him.Baby might be going into camp cause he failed his repeated modules.I coaxed him to appeal and try another time around,I really hope his appeal is granted,I can't let go of baby so soon into camp this soon,I am very unwilling cause I really need him at this point of time,I am going to be even more upset with him in camp.
Nites :(
